Wow man, that's some [snipped] up stuff. I sympathize.
My "illness" :
I had this ongoing thing with my brain. I never found out what it was - and still don't know till this day.
My brain was seeing everything as wavy. It came and went. Like I would look at an object and there was this distinct jello-like movement to it. Like
jiggling.
It was surreal. Visually, everything had some kind of movement.
I thought FOR SURE I had a brain tumor. I still don't know till this day. Sometimes it gets really sever.
One time it got so bad where my vision was flashing really fast like a strobing light. Paranoia fallowed afterwards.
I sat down because I was feeling dizzy from the strobing. BIG mistake -(How can I describe this without sounding like a complete lunatic?) okay, when
I shut my eyes I felt like there were other eyes around me, starring me down. The eyes had this pink, fleshy casing. It was disgusting. So disgusting
it gave me nausea.
I fear my brain may be going kaput.
Something is causing my visual cortex to behave in a weird way.
I never saw a diagnoser for my "problem."
Like I said, it comes and goes.
I fast often. Mostly not by choice

That probably has something to do with it I think. I'm super skinny.
I loooove food, but i can't afford to eat that often: 1 meal a day and some snackage in between.
I eat mostly nutritious portions.