posted on Sep, 24 2012 @ 12:02 AM
This is my first thread, so please be nice.
I don't even know where to begin, but I figured ATS was the place to discuss it. I think I'm having some kind of conspiracy theory/awakening
burnout. Since Occupy started last year, I have been thrust into a far deeper awakening than I could have ever imagined. Shortly after it all began, I
started having anxiety attacks, but I seem to be doing far better managing the anxiety that all the events around the world have been giving me.
I read up on Agenda 21 the other day. Spent pretty much the whole day reading everything I could about it. It seemed to make everything that is wrong
with the world make sense instantly. Especially in the US. Wow. I look around, and while I become far more aware politically and socially as time goes
on, I can not ever remember a time it all seemed so bleak.
Our electoral process is a sham, so we are pretty much guaranteed four more years of the same crap either way. Nobody in power cares about humanity,
really, when it all comes down to it. The rich keep getting richer, while everyone else is slaving and getting poorer. The corporations pump out
toxins and poisons into our environment, food supply, and bodies. The police have become militarized, and it seems the government, and our military,
is preparing for mass civil unrest. We have no more rights that were guaranteed us by the Constitution, and people who stand up for liberty are hauled
off to mental institutions, silenced, censored, or worse. Our prisons are for-profit, and vow to stay at 90% capacity, primarily through the war on
drugs. We are routinely lied to, manipulated, abused, and distracted. Our economy is literally on the verge of collapsing, and all people seem to care
about are celebrities, division, and themselves.
While I'm all for suicide, I plan to save that for something like speeding up the end to a terminal illness, so that is not an option, before anyone
thinks that's where this is headed. I also have 3 kids I need to protect from all of this madness. Voting isn't going to change anything, so I
jumped on the Presidential election boycott bandwagon, much to the horror and dismay of many of my friends.
As an aside, lol, I screamed about all the other issues, people were silent. Try telling people you aren't going to vote. I've been called
unpatriotic, told to move to another country, that I have no right to complain if I don't vote, that I am insulting all the women who fought for my
right to vote, blah blah blah. I have even lost several close friends because of it, and at that time, I was only questioning it. It is fascinating to
watch the incredibly emotional reactions to something so simple, so harmless. I would have been treated better if I had said I had an abortion.
So besides not voting, what can we possibly do to change anything BEFORE it's too late? I'm not looking for an actual answer, because considering
Agenda 21, to me, there IS no answer, except, prepare for a suvival type situation, and I am woefully unprepared. I have a box of dry food, and few
supplies, a couple chapters of a survival manual printed out, a skeleton of a plan for where to go (temperate, in the woods, with lots of plants,
animals, and water, preferably in a nice big cave), dreams of learning how to grow my own food, make vinegar, alcohol, soap, candles, and anything
else useful that would make me and my kids less of a liability in a group.
But the fact that I actually believe we have come to the point where if I don't do these things NOW, myself and my children will be whisked off to a
FEMA camp when SHTF, or shot by our own military for trying to escape my neighborhood, makes me seriously question my sanity. If it weren't for all
the like-minded, intelligent and educated people shouting similar concerns and observations, I would definitely think I was nuts.
This is not a debate thread, so please don't try to refute any of the issues I am concerned about (unless I actually am bat-guano crazy), and PLEASE
don't attack me for not voting. What I would like from you, is to know if it ever gets to you like this, and what you do about it. I'm also looking
to connect with other like-minded individuals so I feel less isolated. Thank you for reading this, and I look forward to your replies.