posted on Sep, 27 2012 @ 08:18 PM
I have struggled with anxiety and depression since childhood. I finally took a medical doctor's advice in my early 20s after getting married and
started taking Prozac. It did help with the depression but also completley eliminated my libido and I began having episodes of uncontrolable rage
leading to violence so I stopped and took something else he prescribed before it ruined my marriage. I think it was Elavil or something similar to
that name, I can't remember because it messed with my memory and appetite. After a year of being treated with it I couldn't stand the different
person I became and decided I would rather be sad so I stopped taking it too. I just dealt with it for about 8 years untill I was having suicidal
thoughts so frequently I was scared so I went back to the Dr. I stressed that I wanted help finding more natural treatments but was reassured that all
I needed was another anti-depressant pill. I began taking Cymbalta and almost immediatley felt like a happy new person. Too happy, nothing could bring
me down, my teenage daughter started walking all over me because I had a new found 'okay, whatever, it's all good' attitude. After a few months I
realized that the happiness I was experiencing was totally fake, nothing in my life had changed other than I just didn't seem to care about anything
anymore and was strangely happy all the time. It just didn't feel real or right. I shared this with the Dr and she blew me off basically. I was also
seeing a therapist at the time and when I shared this with her she also just blew it off and said 'Well what do you expect? You wanted to feel better
right?" This didn't sit well with me, yes, I wanted to feel better but not just a drug induced happiness, I wanted to BE well, not just feel like I
was. So I stopped taking that as well. The only side effect it gave me was excessive sweating, which has still not gone away after 3 years of being
off of it. That is very irritating!
After getting off that drug I decided to change my lifestyle to try and heal myself since I'm not a big believer in putting chemicals into my body to
heal because I don't believe that's what they do and we were not meant to have them in there anyway.They just mask the problem in my opinion.Then
one day as I sat on my bed crying because I was so sick of being sad all the time, a song I learned at church as a child popped into my head "what
goes in is what comes out" I thought about what I put into my body, thought about all the crap foods I ate (I was also just becoming aware of all the
nonsence that is in what we eat) and tried to imagine what those foods did to my brain. I couldn't think of anything positive it could be doing to me
so what I did was try to eliminate processed foods as much as I could and do my very best to avoid anything GMO. I went as all-natural as I could and
I also started meditating and healing and balancing my chakras. I was not a believer in any way, shape or form of this practice when I started. I
figured that since I wasn't a believer in chemical medications and I'd tried them anyway that I might as well try a more natural route and just see
what would happen. That was almost 2 years ago and I can honestly say that it has worked for me. I have a different outlook on life, react to
situations differently and feel overall healthier. I do not feel that I suffer from the anxiety and or depression anymore and I havent had a panic
attack in the two years I've been practicing this healthy lifestyle.
Yes, everyone is different and react to different treatments differently too but I swear that this changed me. I never knew I could be without the
sadness. I was feeling like would be with me forever but now that has all changed. All I had to do was fill my body with what was intended to be
inside of it and clear my mind enough for it to open up and let me find the way to heal myself.
I wish you the very best and hope with all I have you are able to find a way to heal and be a healthy and happy person.
Peace & Love