Originally posted by plutoxgirl
Regarding pills, well I can talk about ESCITALOPRAM (i think its called lexapro in some other countries), yes they did help me. I feel much less
depressed than I did before.
I have really no bad side effects or anything, other than SOMETIMES feeling a bit more agressive.
I have a very strong personality, character, so I dont know if the pills kind of exacerbate my traits. But I also sometimes feel a bit more cold-
hearted. But I dont know, this could be as well the result of different things I have lived in the last year and so.
Apart from that I noticed my dreams have increased tremendously. I dream a lot, like movie types. When I wake up, I can write almosta movie script.
Other than that, its all fine.
That's my experience as well with escitalopram (lexapro). Exactly as you put it.
I'm a really sensitive and empathic individual, to the point that seeing any living being suffering makes my heart ache a lot. This usually sends me
into bouts of anxiety and depression that -if not taken care of- can spiral downward quite hard.
I've been prescribed with paxil (paroxetine), which I took for a year, then went off it a year after. My behavioural changes were the most dramatic
with this drug, as I felt my sexual drive shoot off the charts, but I also became absolutely self-absorbed, egoistic and very aggressive. I quit Paxil
cold turkey and had the worst three weeks of my life, waking up in the middle of the night drenched in sweat, with nasty and very realistic
technicolored nightmares and feeling dazed out during the days, with my brain "zapping" every now and then.
A year after quitting paxil I fell into a depression again and this time I was prescribed Prozac (fluoxetine). In my experience this has been the
"best" antidepressant I've had. It made me feel great, without the anxiety, the crazed sexual appetite, the bloated ego or the aggressiveness and
impatience that I felt with Paxil. It removed all forms of obsessive-compulsiveness and coming out of it was also quite mellow.
Finally, after one year being depression and antidepressant-free, I relapsed and was prescribed Lexapro (escitalopram). For me, it wasn't as strong
as paxil or as efficient as prozac. It did the job. I snapped out of my depression and could focus again in living my life without the constant
anxiety and irrational fears that sometimes would overcome me. On the con side, as you said, it did make me more impacient and quite aggressive,
feelings I usually don't have. it also blocked a significant part of my sensitivity and empathy towards other people, although maybe that was for the
better. It kind of made me more indifferent and cold.
Anyways, looking back, I think that dealing with depression is something that shouldn't be so hard and stygmatized as it is. It's an illness. You
didn't ask for it. There was probably nothing you could have done to avoid it, very much so as a diabetic was born into his condition . You just have
to do your best to deal with it and overcome it.
Thank goodness we live in a time and place where we have medicine that can help us through.
I hope my brief account of hell helps you in something.