Some of you know my sad tale of the past two years:
- Unable to be hired anywhere due to a misdemeanor.
- Having to lose my pride and go on food stamps and finally give up my apartment for Housing.
- Trying to start my own house cleaning business and no one having money for that luxury (except one person, which is gold to me)
- losing school half way through my bachelors degree due to my loans drying up.
- my rabbit dying 2 days after finding out about the loss of school.
I'm happy to report that Monday (9/16/2012), I'll be calling my lawyer to make the court date to travel up North to get (try to get) my misdemeanor
sealed so I may work like a real person and finally have this shadow of the far past off my back. I'll finally be defined as me rather than that
misdemeanor. Wish me luck, because while the paperwork to get it sealed is making its rounds, any one can deny it. If they deny it, I'm very much
I'm also happy to report that I chose to leave Devry after this class with 5k left in my loans. I was originally going to take two more classes in my
major and then self teach. but I decided that was dumb. So, upon looking around, I found the community college up the road offers Phlebotomy (blood
drawing). It's 13 credit hours at only 74 dollars /credit hour. That's a HUGE difference to Devry's 604/credit hour. In 2 semesters I can be a
Phlebotomist, working in a hospital (preferably) or clinic. I have wanted to work in the medical field since I was a child. Don't know why I put it
off so long. True, this is not what I wanted - I wanted to be a surgeon - but as life shows, I'm thrilled to have my dream job no matter what it is:
I'm going to be working in a hospital or clinic! That just makes me beam to no end.
The only thing scaring me is one thing: I'm calling them Monday as well to see if I can take classes with this misdemeanor. Something tells me that
no one would hire me with that hanging over my head. So I'm terrified the judge - or someone along the route as I described earlier - will deny it
and I'll be denied my dream workplace, future, and everything. Oh, I'll appeal, do NOT misunderstand. I'll appeal as many times as I need to.
I'm trying to hold to positive thoughts but it's still brutally terrifying. I really really want the chance to live my dream, get off food stamps
and housing, and BE someone again. I'm so tired of being defined by my mistake of the past (cashed a work check and only after I was arrested a year
later found out the boss had forged it. Supposedly it was us workers' faults for cashing it. Because as everyone knows, all workers should know if
their employment checks are forged or not, apparently.) But yeah, I'm so scared. And it takes from 4 to 8 months from the day one files for sealing
for it to fully go the circuit and you to find out if it was sealed or not.
I tell you, if it does not get sealed, I'm going to be mighty depressed.
If it does get sealed, however, I will feel reborn. I truly hope it's the latter. I'm tired of feeling like less than human for everything going on
(or not going on) in my life.
Just had to let all this out. I hope I didn't glitch my chances of success by talking about this before anything happened. :/ I've seen more people
- and myself included - talk about something amazing happening and then it falls through.
Still, I get a chance to work in my dream workplace. Oh MY god. That alone just makes me thrilled.
Took almost 40 years but yanno, things happen
when they're meant to. My fingers and toes are crossed that this will be sealed. Talk about a new lease on life.
thanks for reading