posted on Sep, 15 2012 @ 09:16 AM
I am generally not one for posting about personal stuff, but this epiphany hit me with great force. I am interested if others have had a similar
Several years ago, I came to a very profound understanding of myself. No one is perfect, but I was comfortable and at one with who I am. I counted
myself fortunate, because it seems to me that many people never get to experience this. I don't buy into the whole morality thing, nothing is black
and white, good and bad. But I have principals, so I find myself acceptable. I have been content until now.
Recently, I have identified an upcoming event in my life that is going to be a major tipping point. Or maybe the potential for a fundamental change is
a better description. Realizing this was kind of mindblowing. I have always taken the Popeye approach if you will,"I am's what I am's, and that's
all that I am's". I viewed it as being on the outside looking in. Not better than anyone, but separate. Now, I have an opportunity to rejoin the
human race, for lack of a better term. I thought I was inevitable, the only possible outcome of my experiences and perspective. This is a chance to be
more than I am. To be better I think. I might even get to be happy.
This is pretty exciting for me. Which in it's self is new, because I rarely if ever get excited. Has anyone else gotten an opportunity like this, or
had a similar experience? To see an event in advance that has the potential to change your whole position and outlook on life? More importantly, if
you have, how did it work out for you? Because while I am trying to focus on the potential positives in this. There is an equal chance that this could
be a catastrophic failure. In which case I would continue as I have. That would be acceptable, but will probably not end well in the long run.