posted on Dec, 29 2013 @ 05:17 AM
My, what a thread! It is good to see the endless tennis match in full form still. I have been away from the community for quite some time now and feel
a bit older and hopefully on track to be wise before corporeal death.
In my humble opinion the OP is absolutely correct. Not only is he correct but his and others' tireless work here shows a dedication to knowledge and
truth far beyond what ordinary folks are capable of.
I can say that today with full 100% confidence, which is an important milestone for me in my life. You see, in all my incarnations on ATS I have
looked across the tennis net towards AugustusMasonicus, ksig and others. I have whacked ball after ball at them in a desperate effort to penetrate
their armor. I have, time after time, stood firm in beliefs rooted in superstition and lies.
Today I am thoroughly convinced that spirituality and truth are not freely given to any man. I can finally see the gauntlet. Please allow a history of
my own spirituality:
My mother is a wonderful, smart compassionate woman who attended fire and brimstone sermons regularly as a child. She has little understanding of
religion and is fearful of anything which might go against fundamentalist church doctrine. Interestingly enough, she is also a well meaning liberal
who falls for every political trick in the book. She cries when I say I don't agree with abortion.
My father was strong, loving, brilliant and much more. His dad was a past master and his mom was in the OES. He was deeply religious and spiritual. He
taught me the importance of art and learning. Looking back I'm surprised how much of an influence the craft had on him because he never joined and he
didn't know anything about masonry until late in life. In his thirties he built a geodesic dome. During this same time period he collected quite
informative books about things like the pyramids, reincarnation, and Atlantis.
I grew up fusing these two schools of thought together. For example, I believed that every great year had its own "Jesus" and "satan". To me this
meant that church = Jesus and cults/societies/brotherhoods/secrets were of the devil because they used forbidden magic and kept their ideas away from
the public except in veiled allegory (until recently that is).
When I became an adult I quickly decided that I loved god and hated the devil. I decided that my soul was tired of the Earth test and was ready to
pass into the next realm of life and leave this planet behind. I vowed to search and seek for the truth no matter what.
So...thus began my almost satirical trials through the gauntlet of the material world. It will be interesting to read my forum posts here over the
years. I feel like I treated religion like shopping for clothes. Going to rack after rack until something fit without having to stretch. I believed at
one point that the pope was good. I believed at one point that the illuminati wanted to horde money and power while enslaving the masses; that the
illuminati was the guiding hand of masonry; that Jews were evil; that the Jews killed Jesus on the cross and had blood on their hands, that Freemasons
were slaves to Jews; that the Christian church was the only path to salvation in the kingdom of heaven; that evil people burn in a pit of fire when
they die; that my karmic struggle in this existence was to wake everyone up to the evil designs of freemasonry and the Kabbalah; that the sun was a
symbol for satan because they both start with an 's'; that Horus was satan; that Osiris was satan; that as long as I accept Jesus as my savior I
will be redeemed in Heaven unconditionally.
I am appalled to admit that I spent about 6 years in the gauntlet.
Throughout my whole life my reasoning and logic centers would chime in and say these things do not make any sense and are impossible. No one can come
back to life after 3 days dead. Rot would set in wouldn't it? Why do I worship Santa Clause on Christ's birthday? Do newborn babies go to hell if
they die because they didn't have time to accept Jesus?
I attended church only once as a child. I was about 9 or 10. My mom asked if I wanted to give it a shot. After my first visit I told my mom that I
didn't like churches because they were fake....
Finally everything snapped at once into place and instantly my former self was but a shadow to be ashamed of....I had a lot of apologies to make. The
only way I can describe how I feel is rebirth. I feel like my former self has been shed like a snake's skin and now I can look back and recognize it
as an old, outdated thin and brittle membrane. An egg of ignorance to hatch from.
I have read lots and lots of j s ward, Robert brown, Hall, Blavatsky, cayce, Jordan maxwell....
Now I see the deliberate methods of Typhon. The machinations of the scarlet harlot. The subtle perversions of the Catholic Church. The overt displays
of the empire of Rome.
I understand why it is important to be a beacon...to shine in the darkness and provide warmth to all around me regardless of any disagreement. Now I
know why ward says Christ is reborn every day.
Lastly, I know that masons do NOT worship lucifer OR satan as God. They believe in TGATU not a couple of grand architects. They are builders not
destroyers. They are men of reason and light as opposed to superstition and falsehoods. They promote education where Typhon seeks to enfeeble the
masses. They are monotheistic. This leaves no room for a satan type deity. The church invented satan....it invented all the restrictive intolerant
bigoted and foolish content in the bible. Now I know who said Israel would perish in the book of Matthew....now I know why Jews and gnostics were
accused of satanism by early churchgoers. Now I know why the church seemed so fake as a child....