reply to post by PassedKarma
I don't know brother. I wish I did. But I can tell you one thing for certain: medication won't help. You're spot on there. I've met dozens of
depressed/f-ed up people in my life, and 99.999% of the time, meds make it worse. Usually lots worse.
I don't suffer from chronic recurring depression, but I've been there (a few times), and my only advice is to find your center. Take it easy and
slow. Meditate. Not in any religious or spiritual way, just calm your mind and find yourself. Work out who you are and what you're doing here.
Realize how incredible it is that you are aware of feeling depressed. That's a blessing in disguise, believe me. Sometimes we get so caught up in
pain that we forget how amazing it is to be able to feel anything at all.
REMEMBER: It will pass. You have to do your part, keep a PMA (positive mental attitude), surround yourself by nice people and things and good music
etc. In the end, it will
pass. Might take a while, but all good things do. Whatever you do, don't dwell on the negative emotions. Just accept
that you feel like crap and move on about your day with the knowledge that it's not forever.
Bring back some novelty in your life. Do some things you never thought you'd do, like skydive/travel/whatever - just get out of your comfort zone.
Start small and work your way up to big things and before you know it you'll remember why you used to love being alive.
Good luck friend. Sometimes the hardest thing you can do is accept something you don't like. Accept that you feel like sh#t, and then it's not so
scary anymore. You have to embrace your suffering (without self-harming etc.). Just remember that without the experience of depression, you could
never possibly appreciate joy as it was intended to be appreciated. And joy will
come! Keep your head up.
Just my 2 cents from spending years in a hole. Despite what the doctors prescribe, there's no easy cure. Life is struggle. But it can also be
beautiful, if you let it be. Just remember, there's nothing wrong
with you. What you're going through is a sane reaction to an insane world.
You just have to learn to cope in the best way that suits you. It's not easy, but it can be done. Peace