reply to post by PassedKarma
I know how you're feeling and just know there are a lot folks out there
that are going through the same kind of emotions.
Hopefully you can find some kind of comfort in knowing that.
I agree with Hefficide, it depends on what the underlying cause of the depression is.
I don't know you personally so it's hard to speculate what that underlying cause may be.
Just so you know, I just went through a MAJOR depression over the summer.
I have dealt with depression on and off for over 10 years now
and it never seems to get any easier.
It seems to effect all other aspects of your life. Career, relationships, social life, everything.
I also know what you're talking about as far as laying in bed wanting things to end.
At nights, I would just just lay there and dwell
on every single negative thing that was going on in/outside of my life.
Some of those things were completely out of my control
yet they still drug me down.
I know you're against taking meds but just know that you don't
have to be on them for the rest of your life.
There are a lot of people out there that only had to use anti depression meds for a short while.
Once they worked out the underlying problem(s), they were able to wean off the meds.
If taking meds were able to get your life back on track then wouldn't
that be worth taking them?
Just so you know, I totally get where you're coming from by not wanting to take meds.
I felt the same way for a looooong time.
Like you, I exhausted other means and had nowhere else to turn.
(exercising and eating healthy).
I also started to self medicate myself with drugs and alcohol which was the WRONG thing to do.
it only made matters worse.
If meds are absolutely out the question then the other thing I suggest is try meditating and
breathing exercises. Many swear by getting rid of depression just through deep breathing.
Check out Bob Frissell's book, "Nothing In This Book Is True But It's Exactly
How Things Are". He talks in depth about different breathing exercises and techniques.
I also agree with someone who posted on here about getting involved with something.
Preferably something creative. Many times, writing/recording music has pulled me out of SO
many holes. I hate to sound cliche but music absolutely saved my life.
Having to much time on your hands can be the worst antidote for depression.
I'm truly sorry you're going though this and if there's anyway I can help just say the word,