It might not be the same for everyone, so I appreciate that you invite others to reflect, introspect, and speak for themselves, rather than simply
dictate to us all what our motivations and reasons are. (that is what I have seen to be a problem around here. )
I don't consider myself someone obsessed with the whole doom thing.
On the other hand, I did feel guided, years ago to set up my life in a way that would maximize my survival chances in case of widespread catastrophy
or failure of our current society system. I did it, and then went on enjoying life.
I admit though that at times, in reading about or hearing about certain scenarios of major destruction, I do feel a tinge of wanting such a thing to
happen.
My perception is two fold-
One is simply my personal appreciation for the creative process, for change, for birth/rebirth. Even with the prospect of suffering, I always feel joy
in anticipation of the new forms that shall come forth after. I'm a woman, perhaps that is part of our make up- otherwise we would have stopped
letting babies come out of our genitalia long ago and none of us would have a physical form to experience!
In all honesty and sincerity, revealing my most profound secrets on this (at risk of being mocked)
I feel that years ago, I became aware of our collective consciousness, and remain connected even now.
And that we CHOOSE to push the re-start button from time to time, and start the game over.
Because our systems we have created are in a state of deterioration, our environment is saturated with refuse and drained of nutrients, the culture
has become so set that radical change becomes difficult without some sort of strong trauma to shake free of it.
Also, as part of our experience of physical time-space existence, we like to have containers which evolve so as to experience different things, and
there are points in time when change to the physical body (mutation) is facilitated, allowing some steps or leaps in the evolutionary process.
This means some growing pains. But I still see it as a beneficial process.
I do not have any beliefs in an afterlife exactly- I am not looking forward to going to any "heaven", though I do percieve a continuation of human
consciousness as a collective that will continue to manifest in forms, and so my consciousness as an individual is not relevant to this change.
I also have a super happy life, by the way, so am not wanting to end it because I am miserable! (thats's what I see people accuse often on
forums)
Do I look miserable?
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