Hey guys, this is my first OP... be gentle! Hahaha.
Hopefully this is the best place for this? Move if necessary, please!
Okay, where to begin? My whole life, as far back as I can remember, I have been "visited" by some sort of negative entity. I've always felt that it
was an alien visitation (rather than spirits or what have you) and I have been just absolutely terrified of the thought of aliens ever since
childhood. The movie Mars Attacks (the comedy!) gave me horrible nightmares for years... literally like 10+ years, and I still can't watch it. I used
to lie awake at night, terrified to close my eyes for fear of waking up with something standing over me or at the foot of my bed.
Now the weird thing is, I can't for the life of me remember any specific details of ever actually seeing anything. I have no physical reason that I
can remember why I would be scared specifically of aliens. I have plenty of memories of just knowing that there was something outside my doorway,
window or at the foot of my bed, but I have no memories of what it looked like whatsoever. Photos of your standard "greys" freak me out though. Even
today, if I see a photo of one on a History Channel show or anything, I physically have to turn away until it's off the screen. I don't think for a
second that it was just my imagination... I can remember specific times when I would wake up to a sound, a touch or a feeling, lie awake terrified
facing the wall or with my eyes closed until I could build up the courage, and then I would roll over or open my eyes... and then the memory just cuts
off at that exact moment. Anyway, I suppose what I'm getting at is that I wholeheartedly believe that I was being visited for whatever reason, but I
have no solid reason why aside from just... knowing. I don't believe it was a spirit (lived in a haunted house after I moved out of my parents' for
two years, but that's another thread. Haha.
Okay, so I will cut to the chase. I believe that I was able to stop my visitations by directing positive energy at these beings. I haven't had one
single solitary nightmare in about a year (used to be almost every single night, multiple per night sometimes) and I haven't woken up in fear of
something being in my house in about the same length of time. Let me tell you, the husband is glad I don't wake him up anymore completely freaked
out, haha. He never believed me anyway.
So, I came up with the idea one night when I was staying over at my mother's house - woke up with a horrible feeling, as always, turned on every
light in every room that no one else was sleeping in, as always, and went to get a bowl of cereal to eat while watching I Love Lucy until sunrise and
I could sleep again for a few more hours... as always. My tradition going back as far as I could remember; Fruit Loops and I Love Lucy until the sun
comes up would just help me feel better
Anywho, so I was going to get my cereal and I noticed a new decorative plate my mom had in her kitchen
that said "Peace, Love and Joy to you" on it. I thought that it was just a perfect saying for me and my constant fear, so I decided that anytime I
was scared I would say it to myself.
So for a few years, I would say this over and over in my head when I would be woken up terrified, and it really worked to calm me down and lower my
heart rate enough that I could actually fall back to sleep without cereal, tv and the sun coming up. Amazing! This became my new go-to solution. If I
couldn't solve the problem, at least I could cut the time that I had to be awake and scared. Awesome.
One day after that, I had another one of those nights where I felt like there was something standing and watching me from the other side of the room
and I just couldn't see it, so I was saying my little loving phrase to myself and I decided that I would direct it towards the being. Peace, love and
joy to YOU. I thought about it really strongly and tried to direct the positive energy towards it, and within minutes I felt an overwhelming sense of
relief and that I was actually alone for once. From then on, every time I felt like there was something in the room with me, I would follow this same
practice, sending this terrifying being my love... and every time it helped.
Over the course of a couple of years, the visitations got fewer, and fewer, and fewer until it went from every day, to once a week, to every other
week, to once a month, to every few months, and then just stopped. I would say it's been about a year since I've woken up scared or had a nightmare
related to that. I really think that sending them the positive energy made a difference. No idea why... I'm not going to question if it was because
they are negative beings, or if they were after me because I was open to it, or whatever, I'm just glad it worked. I can't tell you how nice it is
to not wake up every single night just absolutely horrified at the thought of what might be with me, and not being able to remember why I'm actually
I wanted to share because I just wanted to hear your thoughts, ATS, and I hope that if anyone is going through something similar to what I did, that
they can end their worries and just be happy.