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Things you say give me the impression that you are a very intellectual and aware person. It's good to see.
What are some of your favorite banned books or taboo readings?
I'm in Canada and there is some mystery iniitiative that has made it very difficult to get books of certain topics across the border. Sometimes people get inquiring visits from federal agencies when they order such books.
Rifle restoration, personal defense tactics, lock picking and other prepper related books of this nature are listed as indefinatly unavailable at Chapters. I've inquired many times but nobody can tell me why they will not order these books for customers despite bieng listed in their online catalog. Paladin Press books are famous for this issue.
We are Rigel4...... We don't bring cookies or warm milk for we do not need such puny food. We only devour Flesh on our way to a higher plain. Enjoy the ride on this depraved train wreck.
He said, paraphrasing, Decadence is a historical term for a society in which a malaise has dulled the quality of life and society begins to loose its fabric and cultural developement. Technology the we need to survive is taken for granted. The institutions that were designed to keep us free have lost their orientation. Normal people view evrything as same old same old, like hollywood remakes everything is a rehash.
Believe me when I say...there are lots of things that have neither been said or thought of before. You have stated that you feel that you have a disability. Perhaps...as I have witnessed may times...when one system of a Human Being is limited due to trauma...other systems become extremely sensitive and acute.
I have the problem of not remembering where I put my keys or sunglasses. I am also a notoriously BAD SPELLER! I was told that the reason for this is that my Brain has issues with any form of construct of concept or system that is not based on Logic...thus I before E except after C....sometimes!
You may have damaged a part of your self but a single person is actually 3 independent personalities. The Brain has a Left and Right Hemisphere which are unto themselves...2 identities. The Left side is the analytical side and the Right side is the creative side. Your THIRD personality lies within your Subconscious which is always active and records EVERYTHING that your senses have ever detected as well as EVERYTHING you have ever thought of. It is like a computer and it never forgets but it is so much more. It decides which side of you brain will be allowed to receive the greater portion of data about any event, subject or problem that presents itself. The Subconscious will release a small amount of data to both sides of your brain...both sides are connected and they will FIGHT FOR CONTROL over a subject. The Subconscious will determine which side is more capable with dealing with the information and provide the winning side with more information.
I said...why did you run the scan twice? She said...I thought that the scan might have been faulty as you have very thick and dense Neural Connections...PLURAL...between your Left and Right Brain Hemispheres...I have never sen anything like it.
Experiments have been shown that the human retina can detect a single photon at a time and that the nose reacts to as little as one molecule of scent. These minute perceptions flow constantly into our brains, but they are squelched before they ever reach consciousness. That explains why in certain rare cases, brain injuries will trigger extraordinary leaps in sensory ability.
Back when I was in High School we had to take SAT's, IQ. Social, Placement and Psych Tests that Recruiters who were stationed in our Schools Guidance Dept. received as they were trying to shore up the ranks as this was right at the end of NAM. My Psych and Social Tests showed I had a certain...MORAL FLEXIBILITY that the recruiters look for as well as my off the chart scores on the other tests.
My Friend had suffered a Brain Trauma and was BRILLIANT...but this trauma had left him a little slow and the Teachers as well as Colleges and Military Recruiters never looked at him or made him an offer...but I knew just how brilliant he was as 20 years ago a drug came out that SPED HIM UP. He now makes 6 figures and works for Electric Boat as an Engineer. My point is that he learned because of him at one time disability...how to speed up his thought so he would figure out the answer quickly to give his body and in particular...his Slow Speech....time to answer as he calculated the answer before others but he had a hard time saying the answer in a normal passage of time manner. Speeding up his ability to think...was a necessity for him to compete and once he started taking the Drug...he was able to truly have his Body...work almost as quick as his mind.
So...I think you might find that your Brain and Body will find a way to reroute in a way to allow you to compensate for your issues. My issues...unfortunately...are governed by my Subconscious which I can sometimes directly access. Sometimes...it will not allow me to do so. As a Musician...I have committed to memory Billions of Bits of Data as if you know anything about Music Theory...and we play a complex Fusion style of Rock...sort of if you crossed ZEP with TOOL and YES with some RUSH in their for good measure. I have committed to memory Business Law, High Level of Training Info. used in my THIRD JOB...I can field strip many weapons in the dark if so needed and in this job...I am the OLD MAN by my TEAM's Standards but I am there to be a PROBLEM SOLVER. Split Infinity
Now that I have a bit more knowledge about you...if you don't mind me asking...what Violent act was it that damaged you?
I am not young...nor am I old. But I have enough experiences to fill several lifetimes. The aspect of myself that is not something that can be FIXED...can be a Great Strength as well as a curse. I am aware that there are SEVERAL of ME. This has to do with the Neural Connections between my brains Left and Right hemispheres.
I was recruited to be trained to perform a very specific Job. This Job is one of Three I have but I am training a replacement as I am too old to keep doing it...still...it is this Moral Flexibility that allowed me to obtain it and I am VERY GOOD AT IT. It takes a great deal of mental concentration to perform it and my ability to sometimes have direct access to my Subconscious seems to occur when it is most needed.
Still...I would very much like to know what happened to you. Split Infinity
Originally posted by moniesisfun
reply to post by SplitInfinity
You basically just told everyone that you're a narcissist, and your word shouldn't be trusted in the least.
I'll be sure to note that when reading your posts from now on.
I was afraid you were going to tell me what appears to be Physical Abuse and if there is anything you should know about me is that will neither condone, allow or allow for excuses for physical abuse ESPECIALLY man on woman abuse although all abuse is bad.
I am an Alpha Male of the Highest Order.
a TRUE ALPHA MALE is a Man who has Leadership Thrust upon them by their own conscience.
He Learns from his mistakes and even though he must possess an ENORMOUS EGO...does not allow that ego to integrate with PRIDE.
It is when Pride and Ego combine that problems start. Example...I help run several family Companies but I have two other Jobs so I am not there all the time...but since these companies are not public...I am the person who will eventually Own Them.
I come in and observe and do not interfere unless I see a problem. I take the Exec. aside and talk to Him or Her. I listen to their reasoning...then I decide if I still believe there is a problem. I have extensive experience in the Business world and if I get involved...there is an issue. If I were to listen to the Execs reasoning...find it sound and STILL force change because of Pride and Ego...the Company suffers. I only make decisions based on LOGIC and Trends.
Because of the way I handle this...I am able to gain Great Respect from people who work for the family. Thus...because they know there is an actual REASON I am pulling them aside...they tend to Help Figure Out what problems may arise and it is catchy to the point...People Realize it is OK to make a Mistake as long as you admit the mistake and Fix it...as well as if there is no mistake...I will not Pretend there is just to look as if I did not make a mistake.
Saying that...I am sorry for your Trauma and if I had been there it would not have happened to you. I am a Man of Peace that is capable of Extreme Acts of Violence...but never random violent acts...I am well Trained and if there are a few things that I would use the word HATE to describe...what happened to you would be one of them...the others are DECEIT....and something that I myself have experienced...a person of Authority...such as a Teacher or Other...believing that THEY KNOW WHAT IS BEST FOR ANOTHER...OR THEY ARE THE AUTHORITY ON WHAT THE MEANING OF SOMETHING IS WHEN THEY WERE NOT THERE OR INVOLVED.