posted on Jan, 23 2013 @ 01:46 PM
I have a strong dislike for Anti-Depressants. When I was in high school they tried quite a few different combinations all with negative effects until
they settled on a terrible black labeled drug called Geodon. I took it for about 2 years and absolutely hated it. It made me feel like a lesser
version of myself but since I was fully aware of this I would fight it and resist it's takeover to compliance and meekness. So i had a constant inner
struggle going on which did not make me more manageable or "less wild" in the slightest. My tongue would constantly be moving and rolling around in
my mouth, It made me feel detached, and it temporarily robbed me of my vitality, by that I mean I just didn't have that gusto or zest for life I had
The Pill Pusher decided against everything I had ever discussed with him to try to up and double my dosage. I politely told him "[expletive] you Dr.
Ruderman" and left his office. I went off them cold turkey and couldn't sleep for 2 weeks. Got a weeks supply of Ambien from my doctor to get on
track and everything was fine after that.
I no longer took regular medications and have not since, but my case is a little different than yours since I was taking the pills before for a
terribly maldiagnosed case of "bipolar disorder". 15 year old kids are not the most stable or predicable bunch. I wasn't getting in serious trouble
nor was I a monstrous beastly breathing threat to society.
I irresponsibly started taking unprescribed xanax to deal with my situational depression and that coupled with heavy drinking I lost the years from
18-20 and got up to the point where everytime I took xanax I wouldn't be able to stop until i was out cold. 20 2mg bars over the course of a day. I
am very lucky I wasn't seriously injured due to some sort of accident. I once took 80 1mg blue footballs in an afternoon because i kept forgetting i
had just previously eaten a handful. I fell asleep later that night and didn't wake up for 2 days. A friend of mine came in to check on me and I'm
sure he stole the money out of my pockets. When i woke up i couldn't move my one of my arms for about 3 hours because i had slept on it in such a
strange twisted position.
Three friends of mine have passed on from pharmaceutical abuse related deaths, two of them from my high school graduating class within two years of us
being out. Very dangerous stuff.
I went to rehab a few times and the last time which was a year and a half ago was a full 30 days i "graduated" and although not entirely "clean and
sober" I am no longer a slave to anything nor a self made zombie.
Basically my point is that Anti-Depressant Anti Psycotic type medications that rely on getting into your blood system do not work well in my
Xanax and other short acting drugs are every bit as dangerous and addictive as the epidemic shows them to be. Aside from that I would also have to
agree with you on my doubts of its effectiveness for chronic anxiety. I would go so far as to say I'm sure you can't use it effectively in that way.
I have a friend with similar struggles as you and he takes a Doctor prescribed combination of klonopin and a small round blue pill for PTSD I'm not
sure what it's called though and that works really well for him. As far as I remember the PTSD pill was relatively new maybe research those types of
drugs, rather than a seizure pill that happens to knock you down a notch.