posted on Sep, 1 2012 @ 02:49 AM
Originally posted by mcsandyIt could be brain chemicals which if you voyage through ATS you could learn a lot about things that affect
us (possibly) in this realm.
I know the first lines are directed to me but I'm not sure about the rest.
For good measure I'll elaborate anyway. It's definitely endorphins and there are a lot of things one can do to improve the way their mind functions,
but sometimes you just don't have the will to do these things... so sometimes a person who is in a funk can't just get up and dive into exercise
although it's very important for good health and is a good piece of advice as it will make you feel better.
Let me give you two examples of what I refer to.
I had a falling out with someone and they screwed me over at a time when I had no one else. they were trying to get me to bow down to their wishes
while not giving me a tiny piece of respect. It really got to me how i was being controlled and i wanted to rid my life of that person but it was
easier said than done. Eventually i did but at this point in time, we had fought and I got them to leave and as I was there alone, I really broke
down. I thought I was going to have a heart attack. It felt like an elephant was on my chest and I truly thought i was going to die on my bed
crying.... then all of the sudden it felt as though someone walked into the room and I jumped up off the bed so startled I must have looked insane. I
was certain someone was there but no one was there. This is when the endorphins came and I have no explanation for this because I have been sad a lot
in my life and this doesn't always happen. For quite some time I coasted through a very difficult time with a very distinct sense of peace. I got a
lot accomplished in the next couple of months and got out of a bad situation... at the same time I was grieving over the loss of a friend so this was
no easy time. I can't explain it... but it isn't the last time this has happened.
Later...Job trouble, boy trouble, people being just downright mean and some of this is connected to some of my conspiratorial troubles because of who
i was working for. I have been given a hard time by some government contractors and rather than explain all that, I'll just cut to the chase. One
particular day i had enough and broke down in the parking lot of a restaurant as my family was inside eating. I stayed in the truck because I was at
my wits end, didn't want to eat or talk. I was trying to hold back the tears as i sat there and at the time i was having health problems and a lot of
that was directly related to work. I just felt the blood rush to my head and i just burst out in tears and was sobbing loudly as if it exploded from
me. I couldn't take anymore bull# from people because I don't dish bul# TO people. I wanted to die. I started breathing heavy because I couldn't
catch my breath but suddenly a calm came over me and it's as if someone had put their arms around me, i started calming down... it was cold outside.
i was still very upset but i knew i was going to be able to keep it together because of some comfort i cannot explain.
Several months later things got bad again because i had lost my job and my parents were about to lose their house and I could not help them because i
had no money and i was very angry about all this. Someone on the net had started talking to me and i thought they were a nice person and although they
never said they didn't want to talk to me, they just became very cold and I've gotten this behavior a lot from people who guard their emotions and
turn me into a foe rather than a friend because they seem to be a afraid of something and i get tired of being the one who takes the # for it... and
one night i got very sad, lonely and frustrated because it seemed that none of this was ever going to end... and then this sensation came back. I
can't explain it. It is just a calm peace that washes over me as though it is literally tending to me. I sometimes have strange related dreams, some
things might vary but it's distinct... yet it doesn't always come over me quickly like that, making me calm very fast almost like a drug. Lately it
has been more level and i feel i identify it better and yes, i think it's a spirit and I think it is directly connected to happiness in my life and
also that it helps stabilize my brain chemicals.
It's important to have love in your life. Even if you're alone you can still reach for love if you can do nothing else because God is love. People
may not have real love in their life and it may make them feel unable to help themselves, but they can ask God for help and if they don't feel God,
they can reach for goodness and peace and keep making those choices. Lot's of things can drag you down but nothing like bad vibes and the feeling of
being cut off from love and your deeper spirituality. There's no meaning to the upkeep of any of this without compassion of the heart's desire and
the spirits quest.