I'm replying to the point made in thread about memories and their veracity (see quoted material below) because I have personally had many experiences
that I have needed to repeatedly analyse in order to understand them, and what they may cumulatively mean for me as an individual. I would like to
share two of these experiences, because they have significant relevance to the memes of supposed 'alien' abduction, or as I tentatively see it, the
experimentation and interference of a number of malicious interrelated parties.
Experience 1 -
Aged five or six years old, had the experience of being taken from my bed and strapped to a 'dentist chair', my vision blurred and my whole body
paralysed. There were around four or five people dressed in white who were milling around me and observing me, or applying some form of action to my
immobile form, such as inserting fine needles directly into nerve pathways, causing horrendous actual neuropathic pain. At the final moment before
waking in my bed, I was horrified to see that one of the 'doctors' was guiding a fine needle into my right eyeball, dead centre. As that needle
entered, I regained consciousness in my bed, shaking in fear. My father entered the room quietly, and with a look of guilt and sympathy, asked if I
was alright - he never expressed concern in such a way, it was highly unusual (he was always emotionally distant & unconcerned with my feelings
regarding just about anything). He didn't say anything else, just left quietly when I said I was okay. There was no indication that I had cried
out, he just seemed to come in 'right on cue' as I awoke. My father was for several years an NCO in the British RAF, with extensive military ties -
I was born and raised on RAF bases. His occupation was dentistry.
Experience 2 -
Aged around eighteen years old, living in a hostel as a marginalised, anxious young man with a recent admission to a psychiatric institution (a three
week stint, voluntary, due to 'weird' experiences causing increased anxiety - eventually I was diagnosed as bipolar, many years afterwards). In my
hostel room with the door locked from the inside, had fallen asleep around midnight. Woke to find myself 'paralysed', and experiencing the presence
of a 'spirit' which happened to be female. This, I knew, was a hypnopompic experience. She began to be intimate with me, and kissed me on the
mouth. As she did so, a ball of jelly was transferred from her mouth to mine, and it worked into my stomach seemingly of its own impetus. I began to
struggle against the presence of this 'spirit', sensing that the action had been malicious, and after some moments of mental striving managed to
become more aware of the room, and finally woke completely. I was panicked by the experience, but my room was still locked from the inside, the
window was locked (I was two storeys up), so there was no way that there had been any intrusion into the room. During the experience I had felt as
though I was 'half in my room, half elsewhere'. The next day, I began to have odd sensations of something moving in my abdomen, violently at times,
with severe abdominal pain accompanying these sensations of movement. Over the course of weeks and years, there have been numerous experiences of
such abdominal movements, including sometimes actual visual evidence of 'something' wriggling and pushing under the surface of the skin, in my
abdominal cavity - almost always in the same location, the upper left hand side, at the front. Several years after this occurred, I had an X-Ray of
my chest for something unrelated, and an anomaly appeared in the image - a long tapered 'tail' of something that was positioned behind my left lung.
It is inexplicable in ordinary anatomical terms, and I heard the Radiographers exclaiming 'that is seriously weird'; 'ugh' and comments along
General notes -
Along with the two odd experiences described above, there have been innumerable incidents of apparent 'handling' by persons with mal-intent when I
was a teenager, along with surveillance, and family involvement with strange, inexplicable comments being made regarding my past, present circumstance
- things that nobody should know, unless I was under close surveillance. Also comments from family regarding apparent genetic experimentation,
hybridisation, ET involvement; Satanic manipulation, a mind control manual discovered in the attic - and an unwarranted hypnosis session as a young
teenager without any explanation of why it was necessary.
I am still none the wiser regarding the exact circumstances, but I look very distinctly different from all family members, possessing traits that have
been passed to my own children, but which are not shared by any other family member - also lacking distinct traits held by numerous family members. I
have been told by various people in a multitude of circumstances that my family is not my real family, that I am under surveillance, that I am
'different' in specific ways from the rest of society. There have been enough incidents of a nature similar to the two I have mentioned above to
warrant extreme suspicion that in some way I am a person of interest to military/ 'other' testers of some type or other, but as The Gut has noted
extremely well in many comments in-thread, there is always a layer of subterfuge or obfuscation - nothing is clear, and it seems that it is
I could list another fifteen or twenty experiences of equal 'weirdness' straight off the bat, but it would take up a lot of time and I don't want
to derail the thread. My point, is simply this: I am cogent and mentally stable; I sometimes experience hyperactivity or mild depression, but that
is it - I believe that I had these experiences, but how can I be sure?
I suppose that really I'm just commenting to say that this thread has captured my attention like no other, it resonates extremely well with my own
experience of life! The Gut & others have inspired me to look again at my memories/ current experience. Fantastic work, really.
We'll now search for deeper clues about why .. the intelligence apparatus--might have an interest in ufological topics and memes.
We've also noted this particular study has a natural interest in, "the behaviors of individuals and groups), the data available to them, the
In developing the methodology, the committee considered the end user (analysts & predictors of the behaviors of individuals and groups), the
data available to them, the desired output, and the unique aspects (if relevant) of neuroscience research. Intelligence analysts were
available for consultation throughout the project in order to ensure that the methodology was realistically applied, given the limitations of the data
An important issue for cognitive neuroscientists concerns efforts to determine whether a person is reporting a true experience or one that is
false but believed. In the last decade, there have been innumerable research efforts designed to distinguish true from false memories.
Earlier work examining behavioral differences between true and false memories revealed that group differences were sometimes found (for example, more
sensory details in true-memory reports) ... However, the statistical group differences did not enable reliable classification of any particular memory
report as to its authenticity.