reply to post by Jchristopher5
Firstly, you are not alone regarding these thoughts.
Secondly, your "born again" overnight event some 2 years ago most likely holds the key to your current state-of-mind.
Aside from having only 2 kids and being in a marriage only once, we share a similar story.
I too, have these thoughts on a regular basis - am I part of this world but not "of" it? Why are we here? What is our purpose? The great philosophers
of our times had the luxury of pondering these questions and attempted to answer them as accurately as possible.
I have withdrawn from a lot of what society would classify as normal - eg: I'm not interested in TV, not concerned about church attendance, cannot
remember the last time I purchased clothing for myself and spend very little time socialising with friends (although my career has a lot to do with
that - I am a Captain in the merchant navy) when the opportunity arises.
Instead I find myself contemplating "life" and my purpose in being here - constantly daily - in fact it would be more accurate to say that it consumes
me - my wife is actually starting to really notice this as I am usually quite "frisky" so to speak and now she is questioning whether I have lost
interest in her - which I have not.
What is going on? Well in a nutshell (and I apologise in advance if this does not make sense) I am being prepared for something and I do not know what
I see 11:11 multiple times a day, I believe that Jesus is the only begotten son of the living God and I know that there is something to aliens and/or
interdimensional beings, crop circles, earthquakes, religious division, rotten politicians, starving children, cruelty to animals and other
people..............everything is related - everything.
Proof? I have none. My instincts have rewarded me in my life and I want for nothing - I give money away like its nothing and some people call me
stupid for doing so but my IQ is 149 and I can address multiple tasks at once - all the while thinking about UFO's and how they fit into my life.
And then I found ATS............. Sorry for venting on your thread but hopefully we can address this feeling together. I'll find my answers here....so
will you. The most intelligent people I have ever "virtually" met reside right here. My wife now encourages me to go here - a few hours a day keeps me
sane..........no one in my life can "keep up" with what goes through my head but the folk here certainly can.
1. Please show your wife this comment of mine - it will make her feel better about where you are "at".
2. You would do well to listen to SaturnFX - his comments are mind blowing...as is some others I am sure you will come across (slayer69, Neo96, phage
and quite a few of the Mods....greeneyedleo, tenth, hefficide, donttreadonme and of course skepticoverload)
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