reply to post by Diluted
I understand to a degree. I have a lot of trouble holding a job in the town I have been living. Sometimes, I feel like this town is the front line of
the battle with 'hell', yet you'd never guess it being a passer by. In regard to the work, I am mostly quiet with the managers, I try to just
listen, to be respectful, and do my best to follow protocol.
In turn I am scrutinized down to a hair, where if I make any mistake, even if it is a minute mistake, and even if another manager said to do it the
way I did it, I still get confronted with a level of disrespect and hostility that is definitely, fully,
It's as if they become possessed by the evil one. It's mind blowing, but it fails to elicit much reaction from me overall, and almost no reaction in
I was most recently fired for taking a 30 minute lunch. Honest! The girl I was supposed to work with who was coddled like an infant and always given
lenience by management, left 6 hours early because she was 'having a bad day.' At about 3:00 I got real hungry, so, remembering what I was told the
month prior, I closed the shop for 30 minutes or so, with a note on the door saying 'Lunch, be back soon." The kicker? My good friend was fired from
his job at the exact same time. Talk about 'synchronicity'. I wonder why I put up with this idiocy. Feels like I'm dealing with the lord of time
who has become old, paranoid, and unwieldy...
A couple weeks prior to getting fired, someone stole something from the store. I didn't catch him, so one of the managers decided to go over the
video feed with me.
Here's a list of the things he said to me:
"You're a pussy."
"Here's you, walking around like a bitch."
"See, you're just walkin around like derpa der, you're #ing retarded."
Among many other things. He looked like he was about to attack me at points. In the two prior jobs, in the 1-2 months I worked at these places, I was
also often treated like some kind of whipping boy, to the point of extreme unnecessary defamation and attempts to de-characterization. Good tries,
I came to terms with the fact that there is true malevolence in this world, that manifests within peoples minds, influencing their thoughts, emotions,
beliefs hitherto, and actions in general. What the true sources or processes are, I don't know. We could define it by chemical processes and genetic
predispostion, along with other of the known avenues of explanation, but it'd be missing something. What I do know, is the best way to go about it,
is to strengthen your own spirit, and to never forget about your care, your heart. In those times of hard ship, where another is trying to bring you
down, let your heart keep YOU afloat, for the love of you.
As for me? I already know what I'm up to. I no longer feel sorry for a lot of these people who have essentially allowed themselves to become great
imposers upon us all. I've discovered that some people can change, but many cannot change to a degree to which the cost they impose upon humanity and
subsequently the planet itself, is less than the benefit they provide. It also has to do with ability to concede.
Good luck, and take care of yourself!