posted on Aug, 19 2012 @ 03:01 AM
A little about myself: 23 years old, male, 5'11 and I weigh 125 lbs. I go through a carton of cigs in 5 to 6 days, The only thing I drink is soda, I
work in fast food so I tend to eat where I work most days.
Health problems: Overactive thyroid, I have to consume 3,000 to 4,000 calories a day to maintain or gain weight, my weight ranges from 114 to 127,
I've never been over 127, and I've lost up to 5 pounds in 1 night of sleep before.
I also have severe acid reflux disease and have to get my esophagus at the opening of my stomach stretched atleast every 10 years (Hopefully only 10
years) The first time was June of 2011.
That's as far as my health 'problems' go, I wouldn't really call them problems as they don't affect my everyday life, I tend to stay within a
healthy weight range and have only been hospitalized once for dropping down to 99 lbs last year. And the only thing my acid reflux does is make it a
little uncomfortable at night when I try to sleep, especially if I stray from my strict diet.
Ok, Now to my heart attack, I was on the computer and it was in the middle of the night, I was actually here on ATS, lol. Anyways, I noticed a feeling
of anxiety take over me and then there was an adrenaline rush and not even a split second after that my heart was beating out of control, and wasn't
beating normally, it was like there was a giant whale flipping around in my chest, then came a stabbing sensation that started in my heart and spread
to the rest of my body. Everything I just said all happened within 2 seconds but felt like a lifetime, I tried to get up off my chair and fell
straight to the ground in the fetal position.
It was in this moment when I fell that I knew that this was it, I was terrified....wait no, there isn't a word in human language that could describe
how terrifying it was, I knew I was a dead man, My grave flashed before my eyes with the date 8/16/12 scribbled across my tombstone, and all I could
think about was my mom not having me there to care for her and her finding my body. When I knew that I was going to die I did something I never
thought I would do before considering i've been a non believer my whole life and have the threads here on ATS to prove it, I called on Jesus and I
begged for forgiveness and to be spared and I repented and confessed every dirty little secret I had and just asked for forgiveness over and over,
There were a few things I wasn't willing to ask for forgiveness for though even in the face of death, being gay for example, it's just who I am.
Anyways onto the NDE.
During all of this it felt like a lifetime, and then the pain started to finally fade, and then I felt this most incredible warmth all over my body,
it was pure bliss and I was being bathed in the most brilliant light I had ever seen, it was indescribable, I didn't see or hear anyone but I did
feel someone and in that moment I knew God loves me no matter what or who I am or what i've done, he knew I would find him and then I heard a voice,
"It's not your time my child, evil tried to take you because they knew you were turning to me, go back home." And in a split second I was back in
my room on the floor in my mothers arms.
All of this happened over the course of 3 minutes, my mom said I stopped breathing for what seemed like 15 seconds (it felt like a lifetime) and she
had to perform CPR, an ambulance was at my house within 4 mins, and my heart attack was confirmed through a blood and ekg test, thankfully I had
little to almost no damage done to my heart and I'm hoping and praying that everything will be ok in the future, something tells me that everything
will be ok. I even quit smoking and haven't even had the urge to go back.
This isn't meant to be a religious thread, this is more of a thread on my NDE, I've never been a believer, even at a young age and I don't consider
myself to have a religion, more of a personal relationship with God that I am just getting to know and to be honest I'm thankful for the heart
attack. If my mom hadn't have heard me hit the floor I don't know what would have happened,