Hi everyone, This is my introductory post, I hope you find something in here that provokes a thought

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posted on Aug, 14 2012 @ 02:24 AM
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Hi everyone

Let me start by saying that ATS has been part of my life for almost 2 years now, and I'm finally done lurking in the shaddows.

A little about me: I am a 25 y/o Male living in the city (or rather large town) of Cairns which is located In Far North Queensland, Australia. The Humidity here will take the pepsi challenge with anywhere else in the world any day of the week (during the summer months anyway) so just a little on the climate change topic i've lived here since the age of 4 when my parents moved here from the state capital and this years winter has been the coldest yet BY A LONG SHOT! over the years we have also noticed a definate decrease in rain fall and tropical storms (Yes I was In Cyclone Yasi 2 years ago, which was not as bad as everyone said (at least here) the town of Innisfail was flattend However they were still picking up the pieces from cyclone Larry that hit a year or two prior) these are just a few weather changes i've noticed in my 21 years of life in tropical north queensland.

A Little More about me: I tend to get side-tracked alot as you can see from the previous paragraph, so now I guess is an appropriate time as ever to admit that YES I AM SEVERLEY MENTALLY ILL! I was first institutionalized in 2006 accused of being a speed addict (never touched the drug in my life) untill the test all came back negative, and they reallised that i actually have a mental condition. I was diagnosed with Bi-Polar disorder and perscribed doses of "Sodium Valproate" and "Zyprexa Olanzapiene" after my struggle with the australian mental health system and the drugs (extreme weight gain, grinding and loss of teeth and not working in general) i sought out the ONLY OTHER Psychologist in Cairns who wasn't associated with mental health he put me on a medium level dose of "Zeldox" (and yes it is a Pfizer drug) A generic anti-depressant and a very small dose of "seroquel" as well as the occasional "Valium" on which I was very happy with for many years, So happy infact that I made the deadliest mistake anyone with mental health issues can make, I stoped taking them. 6 months later (Mid Feb 2011) I was in hospital again facing the same ordeal over again (during this hospitalisation period I learned alot about my "Galactic Origins" but more about that later) during this stay i was put on a dose of 1000mg twice a day of "Lithium" as well as a large dosage of the anti-psychotic drug "respiridone" the anti depressant "sertraline" or "zoloft". over the next 9 months I gained 40 Kgs from the Lithium (this is all what my doctors have told me) I also developed random lumps throughout my body caused by the "respiredone" which also caused an EXTREME case of "Glycostima?" (I think that's the term) which is the scientific name for man boobs. in addition the "sertraline" also caused sexual disfunction (which wasn't minor either) I then broke free of Mental Health again and returned to my previos doctor who has put me back on much the same as I was before (80mg Zeldox, 90mg Cymbalta (anti-depressant) and 25mg of seroquel) which is not exactly working properly but it is currently the best thing we can find. In addition I openly admit so self medicating through the use of cannabis under strict guidelines of course, this I have found to be THE BEST MEDICINE BAR NONE! and anyone who wants to debate me on that I would simply say to the "without it, i would not be here today!" any questions regarding any info in this paragraph (or whole post for that matter) will be answerd to the best of my ability and rest assured nothing you ask or say will offend me


ok that was alot more about me, but here's some more! I've been playing music for as long as I can remember. I first picked up the Alto Saxaphone at age 8 then switched to the Bass guitar at age 13 i continued to play bass for many years joining many band including my 3 year reign of terror with Metal band "Canniblast" (and yes i came up with that name
) in which we cut albums and toured the coast of Queensland a few times. unfortunatley the band was disolved in 2010 at which point I switched to Lead Guitar and am still playing to this day (currently working on a solo Progressive Black Metal album) my Musical taste is eclectic to say the least, my favourite genre's like "Black Metal" (or I should say the incarnation of Black Metal as it exists today) most of which originating in Norway, bands such as "Emperor" "Immortal" "Dimmu Borgir" and "Mayhem" In addition I also listen to alot of Progressive music (new stuff, old stuff, metal and non) MY FAVOURITE BAND OF ALL TIME IS "PORCUPINE TREE" (steven wilson is a god) also bands like "rush" "camel" "marillion" "king crimson" "opeth" As well as almost any other form of Metal (with the exceptions of "thrash" and "doom") so to pre-emptivley answer your questions NO! FOR THE RECORD! I DO NOT LIKE "SLAYER OR "METALLICA" THEY ARE A STAIN ON THE WORLD OF METAL! ( sorry to the fans on here i'm just being honest) hell i even listen to alot of pop (as long as it's real) bands like R.E.M and some FANTASTIC australian rock bands like "silverchair" "crowded house" "grinspoon" and "karnivool" just to name a few. also classic staples like "the beatles" "pink floyd" and the less recognised "Hawkwind" etc.

Whilst i'm tooting my own horn, no point in stopping now. In a theme more directed towards the nature of the site. from the ages of about 12 to 14 I was sure I was being taken by entities from another world (I susspected E.T's at the time but who really knows) at the age of 15 I began sufferuing major depressive bouts and abused people on a daily basis with little or no remorse, at this point my cries for help were ignored by EVERYONE and after failing to take my own life several times began smoking Cannabis at age 16 and had never been happier. At this point I began to forget the strange abductions as they seemed to stop (at least for a while) and just tried to put them behind me. My only recollection of my abductions was a brilliant white light flowing through my bedroom window and I still to this day have a distinct image of the faces of 3 grey E.T's (they were actually more of a beige or tan colour but i use the distinctive "grey" for reference). My parents seperated when I was 8 years old and during the period I was taken from both parents houses and each time one of my parents moved (which was alot) they followed.... but as I said around age 16 they came to a strage stop (I don't know why mabey the cannabis clouding my memory, even though to this day my memory is still almost photographic, so I really don't know) then in late 2010 my fiance and I moved into a townhouse which had some form of sad spirit in it (we could litterally lay in bed and hear it traveling up and down the stairs, no pets at that time) one night (whilst not medicated) I broke down and cried at the top of my Lungs for over an hour, inexplicably the next night the spirit was gone and never returned. About a month after that (and a month before my second hospitalization) I awoke one morning with 3 LARGE scratches running from my left shoulder down to the center of my chest, not bleeding externally but some blood vessels or something must have broke because it appeard to be bleeding internally??? strange... Stigmata? ET's? all oppinions appreciated.

O.K thats enough for now as i'm almost out of characters and you've probably had enough by this point, thankyou for your time, Love light and all that crap!




posted on Aug, 14 2012 @ 02:36 AM
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Hello and welcome to ATS.
From your introduction it looks like you are going to fit right in here.

I have had similar experiences to you regarding the mental health system and the problems associated with drugs prescribed by the "professionals" until I found a psychiatrist who actually agreed that they don't know what the drugs do and has since helped me with alternative therapies.

I am look forward to reading more from you as it looks like it is going to be interesting.



posted on Aug, 14 2012 @ 02:48 AM
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great intro thread!! welcome to ats, looks like you should fit in well here with the rest of us nutjobs!



posted on Aug, 14 2012 @ 02:50 AM
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Thank you friend for posting your life!

I'm sure you will have more than enough answers here.

There is not wrong life or bad life, yours is fine!

I admire your courage to live!

Happy



posted on Aug, 14 2012 @ 02:54 AM
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Wow! Crazy story!

I am glad you are here


I hope you find a regiment of medication that keeps you feeling good.

I have never been abducted but I do believe in the phenomena. How scary that must be for you.

Take care now, and may the guardians of our planet be with you.



posted on Aug, 14 2012 @ 03:04 AM
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Thanks "Nolabel" appreciate the kind words Mate! (and yes as an ozzy everyone is my Mate
)

I have many stories on various topics, however their is a time and a place for them, which is not here.

By the way any E.T's who may be reading this weather your one of my "Grey" associates, a "plieadian" or a member of the "galactic fed" even a "reptilian" (whom i've allways been a little suss on) PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!! come to my house, appear to me in a dream, whatever you want, i don't really care but I and many like me NEED SOME FORM OF CONTATCT NOW! or do you just expect me to stock it all on faith? yeah right, might as well become a christian. Anal Probe me! Put Chips In My Head! Force me to mate with other E.T's and Hybrids! I DON'T CARE! after all the SH!T i've been through in my life (and that intro was just the tip of the iceberg) their is NOTHING you can do to scare me, cause me pain, or fear, and if you come with Light and Love the feeling in mutal, know that I love you as I do all creatures.

Whilst I'm on the topic I just rememberd something cool I left out of my Intro. During my second hospitalisation I met a man who claimed to be a "Plieadian" he told me that he would be returning home to the system soon, and that I would be going too..... (admitedly this is an institution for the mentally ill) but i found it interesting, this conversation took place around midnight on my 3rd straight day with no sleep (got up to 5 my new record
) as soon as we both knew we were on the same page, 2 security gards walked up to us and said "Game Over Boys, Gene (Me) you win, Mark you loose, go to bed" admitedly in a manic state I suffer from what is known as Auto-Schitzophrenia which is where you don't just HEAR voices but you actually SEE PEOPLE HAVING A CONVERSATION THAT NEVER TOOK PLACE! i just thought it was a strange thing to say..... I also met a very inteligent young woman in there who showed me some great music and tought my many things about the Mayan callander and assention, many thanks to those two and my other friends in there who helped me through the dark times.



posted on Aug, 14 2012 @ 03:20 AM
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What an into, very interesting story you have there
.

Welcome, i hope you'll bring the same enthusiasm to the threads on here
.

Namaste.



posted on Aug, 14 2012 @ 03:46 AM
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Welcome.

I wonder why head cases and drug addicts always end up here? lol

No judgement tho



posted on Aug, 14 2012 @ 05:02 AM
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Originally posted by Sinny
Welcome.

I wonder why head cases and drug addicts always end up here? lol

No judgement tho
passive aggressive much?



posted on Aug, 14 2012 @ 05:07 AM
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welcome o.p. you will meet many people here who will make you feel like you're the sane one,enjoy.watch what your saying about smoking weed though,the mods will remove posts,give you a ban etc.some of the terms and conditions are ridiculous,no free speech on a.t.s.
see you around the boards.



posted on Aug, 14 2012 @ 05:28 AM
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Nope, not today, just something Im wondering, as the last handful of introductory threads have had OPs with pretty much the same background.



posted on Aug, 14 2012 @ 05:39 AM
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yes know what you mean.I noticed last week you commenting on a guy who said he'd been on the brown and green.I thought the same as you brown isn't cannabis!



posted on Aug, 14 2012 @ 05:50 AM
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yea, Im mean as far as recreational "stuff" goes, Im all for it, I do detest "hard" stuff however, dunno why, from exsperience, I've always viewed them as bottom feeders, and rarely have any sympathy...

I only recently found out one of my favorite online authors had a history with "it" though, I was quite shocked, but in a good way, hence, ill always be skepical, but still reserve judgement



posted on Aug, 14 2012 @ 07:26 AM
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thanks all, I agree with the views towards the hard stuff it never has and never will be a part of my life. As for being a head case on ATS, i can't think of any other place a head case like myself would rather be
happy to finaly be part of things. Goodnight, Love, Light and all that crap...



posted on Aug, 14 2012 @ 07:56 AM
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Originally posted by glen200376

Originally posted by Sinny
Welcome.

I wonder why head cases and drug addicts always end up here? lol

No judgement tho
passive aggressive much?


Oh please. Jerald Laughner was a member here.

The crazies are what makes me come back. It is interesting. Especially the ones with a fetish for research. It almost consumes them. They feed the web content beast and I am pleased.



posted on Aug, 14 2012 @ 12:21 PM
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Hey there and welcome to ATS ... what a fantastic intro thread ... I feel like I've actually met you


Anyhoo, enjoy the time you spend here ... after all the time you've been lurking it must look a little different on this side of the fence.

I look forward to seeing you around on the boards


Woody



posted on Aug, 15 2012 @ 06:24 AM
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Hi!

Welcome to ATS!



posted on Aug, 15 2012 @ 11:32 AM
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I don't suggest your "method" too much. Id explain further but would not like to undermine T&C.

The ETs enjoy you repressing, and enjoy your usage even further because it clouds your judgement.

I can get medicinal papers if i felt it necessary, but i do not enjoy the overwhelming sensation of forgetting what was important to me. Not saying don't, just saying be mindful is all.

Welcome btw,
Mike





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