IT seems to me , that on this site then a lot of my posts get ignored . That's not a bad thing , because I would not expect that sometimes random
statements or comments or sometimes statements of fact from me go down all that well . So I apologise , because it is no good being or even seeming
aloof , haughty or better than anyone else . I am not and my statement here is "I am not worthy" , or that wholly catholic view , "I am a worthless
I say that, because with people , we have been there , and we have done that . All we say is true true true . And then bang we are into celebrating .
For all fall short of the honour afforded us , if we were just , just , _better , that's all.
The trouble I have is that , and this happens away from the computer too , is that , I keep mutually excluding my enemies , but , worse , keep
gathering more of them . And though Im worthless that s not my fault . Its theirs , and they are just as worthless as me. Maybe more . It seems I cant
help but gather in life , the very best of people , and also though , the very worst .
I have run across the richest , the very richest , and the very poorest , the worse than broke .
And across the board its the same - the most intelligent and the very thickest of all .
The hardest , and I am not joking - the hardest , and , the weakest , the most tiny .
The most beautiful , and the most unsightly .
The most able , and the people crippled in many ways , life has brought them into my knowledge.
So I end up with friends , some of them regular cohorts , a lot of them aquaintance where we have taken away mutual good exchanges , and sometimes in
a long term way . I have never used anybody , really , or never abused them is what I mean . People know to take me at face value - I mean what i say
and I do actually do what I say I will , given the constraints we might agree .
Being taken at face value then is my trouble - and whenever people have given me trouble , I think it is because they have not or do not want to or
canot face taking what I say , or my approach to life , at this face value.
They will be the ones who build in structure into my own infrastructure , and will suspect for themselves , that because I present at face values,
there must be a trick somewhere, at least some kind of small con somewhere in it.
So people that know me say its' "bothersome" to listen. This is where they build in their disagreement , because really they know that they are not
going to be able t disagree with me, any further down the line than , even one sentence from me. And now I cant construct a logical argument , because
its "too long" . And these days people dont listen to ec other. More than one of two connected statements and they start to get lost , even with
A difference I have noticed is that I can listen to someone for 10 minutes , of just them talking , and it means that everyone else has to listen too
, if I am listening , I am watching for interuptions - and thinking of questions for later . So often you can learn nothing from someone in 30 minutes
, and all kinds of things in under 5 . So unfortunately for me , I have to re-align constantly to listening rather than being listened to. People who
actually do listen and think about what others say, are few and far between I think , and perhaps , even , on this website. And it millionaires, the
rich , and powerful , have , luckily for me , liked me , or respected my values in life, and therefore given me work. And the time to get on with it ,
without being harassed.
And when t comes to friends, then I count and rate these with the rest - because they reconcile me to them , an say , "well they are not going to
understand that , have leniency at all times. " This is good friends ameliorating for liars , cheats and downright theives and poisoners I have come
across in life, as well as Jo Public. But thats another story, my story, not theirs. And my friends , my real friends know that I wouldnt put it on
them, to have to worry about things for me. But others would be more wary I feel , and may feel trapped in middle ground , even before they even met
Anyhow a small symbol, just a small of trust , and the smiles come. There is no problem if matt has made a mockery of silly folk, even if they dont
know , that it is yet again. Because a constant trampling has been going on , without me even leaving the house . Honestly , I cant help walking into
co-incidence after co-incidence after co-incidence. Any man would start to wonder if he was being set up. And he was, when the house of cards came
crashing down. Again. And wouldnt they keep a secret of it.
I have had some absolutely extraordinary luck in life, besides all that. Literally speaking , I am covered in gold ornaments , live next to a 1000
year old oak tree , and down the road from a 2000 year old Cedar . Life has attached to me , of its own accord , the world . There is no blessing I
havent taken yet , but endless more to come , Inshallah , or that eternal One , that bestowed it. And now with the isolation , feel the hatred build .
Hear it coming - the steam train .
Anyone who comes to my house , has to find out that what cant be taken away , wont be taken away . My philosophy is , that nothing remains a secret .
I have given away plenty plenty ideas , a loads of them. And when you've friends , sometimes you've got friends for life , even though no monetary
or even conversational exchange takes place . Thats the way I like things . I think that if I am an owner of the world, then its my lot to improve
that world , and not ask for a fee. And so , when 'life' pays your fees , you are more than rich , in fact you have made it. Minted , is what i am
So giving pieces of advice sometimes raises an eyebrow , sometimes disappoints . It depends on the person's attitude . Sometimes they need to know -
i am going to take their advice , on some things , but not on others .
They need to know I am a generous person , given the circumstances . They need to know , and they usually do by now , that they are going to have to
have their facts straight , and remember the evidence . Bring the proof.
And where people shy away from me or get embarassed is that they should know - they cant lie to me .
To such an extent that dont even tell me a small lie , or even the first lie you might think of , of any set.
Knowing something is true takes back up and self confidence to say it is true . You go beyond belief into knowledge here . And so you are being shared
with , a method of denying ignorance . You stop your own ignorance from even starting - your stop your own objection from even coming . You indicate
to the liar , dont even start to lie to me . You remind to the honest :- every time , bring the proof . You impress upon those who might fault you ,
or disbeleive any of your statements , "I am not deluded by beleifs" . And you ensure they realise - I am a person who makes up my own mind
So , it is often confusing , why would this be written here , on this website ats ? Across the top of the board it says "Above Top Secret " and the
words "Deny Ignorance" . This means we stop ignorance from happening .
And these methods , are that which we should hold up , and ought to share , if you will allow me the use of those words . We must_ must retain freedom
of speech , and then , sometime in the future , these doors will be unlocked for mankind . Even all of us ,going beyond ignorance.