posted on Aug, 11 2012 @ 06:02 PM
Here I was a full blown Christian many years back. My mind racing with questions about the size of the Universe, the presence of God, how other
religions fit into the picture, and many others My thirst for knowledge could not be quenched back then.
I took on my own personal World Religions studies just to see what everyone else was saying and how it compared to my precious Christianity. So here I
was, sitting on a couch in my living room, having recently purchased my first ever Zen book to see what it's all about. I did not know it was a Zen
book at the time.
It started off discussing how all views are relative. How a child simply is aware and does not know. That child learns and everything it is taught is
a program that rests on top of that original child-like awareness.
Eventually I came across this sentence:
"Just like the thought of a rock, is not an actual rock; So who you think you are, is not who you actually are."
I froze at this expression and began to dismantle it. First I found that it was true, that a rock is its own thing (completely naked without any
labels), and whatever I think of it, is merely an imagined illusion based representation of the actual rock. Instantly I saw how the mind superimposes
representations over all of reality.
This statement was thus far true. Better yet, it was logical and rational and was devoid of any religious labels. This statement did not belong to
Zen, or Satan, or God, or anyone. It was merely fact.
So I continued. Seeing that all mental images/thoughts are not real, but illusions using mental representations superimposed over reality, I then
tried to find out who I am, .....that is not a thought.
Any answer that the Mind came up with was a thought, therefore was not I. So I wrestled with this for the next 15 minutes, like a puzzle. Who am I,
that is not a thought?..... all the answers were thoughts.
Then it happened. In an instant, I shifted into a third person perspective. I was now viewing the mind. The thinker of thoughts was being seen from a
third person perspective. I saw that this thinker of thoughts is not I. The ego was seen for what it is .... a bunch of illusion imaginations.
This was AWESOME!!!!! Filled with Joy and Laughter and Peace and Awe. I hated myself basically all my life and was now free from myself. I was again
like a child, seeing everything anew. So after a 2 hour walk in this new child like state where everything was in Awe, I came back home sat on the
couch, took a deep sigh of relief from being freed from myself, and then then next shift happened......
This childlike state seemed to drop instantly into an Ocean of Oneness. There was no longer any me. There was only what was, and what was, was an
Infinite Beingness, and Absolute state. Nothing could ever trump this, for this was the foundation of all of reality, beyond words, beyond thought.
This was the final exclamation point !
In the excitement of this experience, the original mind came back into the scene to try and figure this all out, which pulled me out of all the states
and back into the Ego/Mind/I complex.
This was It !!!!!! When Jesus said, "I and the Father are One," it was him being permanently in this state. I too, for a few seconds, had been one
with the Father.
Amazing!!!! All that happened from a logical/rational sentence(not belonging to any religion nor a weapon of Satan) that I mulled over for 20
Coming back to reality, I saw the difficulty in explaining this, for all understanding would be limited to language and thought, all of which is
illusion based and could never represent nor even touch the Absolute state of Being which not only transcends all thought, but is also prior to it.
So then I saw that Jesus had been a Zen master. Surrounded by a bunch of Jews who are busy killing innocent animals as sacrifices to a blood thirsty
God to cover their sins, and anyone who speaks against their way of life ought to be stoned ...... Jesus had to be slicker than greased lightning and
even then, he had to dumb this down to everyone, considering the IQ level of the simpleton folks back then.
Since then I embrace Zen, as a Christian. I think they are interchangeable and highly compatible. I find that Zen is not some religion or a thing that
satan created to deceive ....... but an actual Science that uses logic and reason to break down reality to the very Absolute Truth of it all.