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Originally posted by R6A6W6
What the hell is wrong with me? and what can I do to firstly change my states of mind and secondly I wish so badly to be understood when it comes to living in the so called real world, I just can't handle it.
Originally posted by Thisbseth
I feel depressed. And I do not know how to handle it. After four years the love of my life broke up with me. And I can't handle it. I want to quit my job and just move away. I hate my life and what I have become. If I made the right choices she would still be with me. I messed up pretty bad and I need help. I want I get her back but I do t know how.
Originally posted by daynight42
reply to post by Samuelis
You're not mentally ill. Mentally ill to me is what most people do, which is to delude themselves so far that they are no longer in touch with the reality of what is going on in the world.
On the other hand, you were and are very in touch with what it going on. That counts for something. Sure, you have your delusions in that state, but they were a result of that state. What excuse do most people have for deluding themselves to pretend everything is rosy?
I've been manic too. I became hyperreligious whereas before I wasn't. I was expecting to see rivers of blood if I made it to one (I didn't get there). I gave away money too and spent a lot, but not all of it. I was paranoid and figured the police were out to get me too. They tried everything to trick me like asking me where I live. I might be on a bus to fly out of the country at an airport, but I am not stupid, and I know where I live. Next question?
I've met people who were diagnosed with conditions, and some are very far out and out of touch. So what. Plenty of people are! It's just that if you're out of touch in a way that isn't common, people get afraid.
I call it "bipolar ORDER" because I never felt better and more confidant and sure of my purpose in life than I did then. And besides, I am very much cognizant of what is going on in the world, why, and why I refuse to cooperate with "society" as a result.
Now, if any "normal" person lives in a bubble and denies the state of global affairs, then they are the ones living in a fantasy world, and they are the ones who need help.
Some of the world's finest artists were bipolar. It can mean greater creativity for many people. The day I let anyone "normal" in society tell me I have a problem and I take that personally...will never come.
If one person has a delusion...it's called a delusion.
If millions or billions have a delusion...it's called "life" or religion or a belief.
Originally posted by PaxVeritas
reply to post by Samuelis
Your original thread, which by your admission was a psychotic manic episode, garnered over 118 stars and flags.
If that doesn't say something about ATS, I don't know what does.