Let me start this post by saying I have no idea why im truly writing it, maybe to vent, maybe for advice, I just don't know. The only thing I am sure
of right now, is that my gf of almost two and a half years, the love of my life..is currently leaving me. Let me take you back to the beginning...
It was a hot summer day, and I was on the way home from my local gym, when a friend I went to school with passed me by, her name was irene.
She starts texting me that evening, and fast forward a few weeks things are going great, we go see a few movies and such. 3/3/10 somewhere around 9 pm
I ask her to go out with me, to be my gf, and she said yes..that night, the stars were out, illuminating her face, her beautiful flawless face..I tell
her though, that I don't have a job (fresh out of hs, trying to go to the navy) except for doing a little side work with my stepdad on some side
roofing jobs he had, she was ok with this, and we went on to have an amazing relationship..for a while.
Four months pass, and due to childhood asthma and the waiver process I was going through, my plans were being severely delayed. This is where
a big problem comes in, her stepdad. Now, you may think this is an angry ex taking an extreme point of view on this fellow, but there are several
others in my community who think the same as im about to tell you. He had an odd way around her, odd in the sense that he had fatherly feelings. Maybe
this came into play, idk, but at that 4 month mark since I didn't have a job and he didn't believe me about the navy (unsure why) he gave her an
ultimatum, leave Dj or I take away your college and kick you out. She left me..publicly. Now from there on our relationship took on a secret life,
only seeing each other a few min a day, no talking on the phone, using email to text, and so on. Even through all this, I was happy, she felt like the
other half to my heart..still does.
Well time goes by and the navy puts me on hold, not wanting to process me due to childhood asthma, and screwing my in the waiver process by
telling me I needed documents I didn't have access too (doctor died, moved before he died, and the old dr office closed down) so I take a job at
mcdonalds, and work there for quite a while, and all was good, still being hidden. Well almost a year down the road i get a call from my recruiter,
said there was a chance I could get that waiver, there was a new dr at meps. Lo and behold my very next trip to meps my waiver was cleared and I had
my ship out date, fast forward to 2 months before I ship. A friend of mine that I had been hanging out with had bronchitis. Well, I start getting a
nasty cough, all day. I make a doctors appointment to go get checked out..the doctor puts something about asthma on my paper work (what I had to get
wavered for in the first place, keep in mind, that waiver was for my childhood asthma, I was told). I show my recruiter, and he shows me the door,
because any current condition with asthma was not allowed in the military he told me. That was like a bomb exploding on me, I had wanted to join the
navy for years, but alas fate didn't have it that way.
I took about two months to get my stuff together and figure out where I wanna go from there, still working side jobs with my stepdad. Well, I
decided I knew my next goal, and I applied to my local community college for this fall in a degree in simulation and game development. I thought
everything was going good, but just an hour ago, the love of my life tells me she doesn't want to do this anymore..and the reason being, because she
is afraid to tell her parents, and would rather leave me than deal with telling them..i still don't know the point of me writing this post, maybe I
thought it would help, maybe it did a little, im not sure, im still overwhelmed with sadness trying to fight and claw my way to save this
relationship..thanks for taking the time to listen to me my ats family, I hope your nights are going far better than mine..
edit on 01/08/2011
by Thesickness because: (no reason given)
edit on 01/08/2011 by Thesickness because: (no reason given)