reply to post by orionthehunter
I have become hesitant to talk about things that are not pertaining to this world. People are dangerous lately. I feel like we are being tagged for
I can't help it though.
I have been extra sensitive lately. Starting about a month ago I felt the strongest urge. A temptation I never felt like that before. I think I was
being seduced to call the dark one. I know what people will say. Please leave or laugh to yourselves silently.
I was considering what I had read before lunch and was feeling damn good. I suddenly was overwhelmed with thoughts of the futility of my....resistance
I have for a long time reduced my "output" so as to 1, mask my signature, 2 not influence people.
I was sooo tempted to just throw in the towel. I started justifying his position against "God". The injustice of being punished for love. Etc.
I was really troubled and was hungry for power. I mean I was reaching levels I had long since set aside. It took a long process of "rebooting" to get
over these feelings. I was filled with thoughts of seeking beauty, destroying the ugly, exalting the talented, having people worship me. It was
freaking insane. It was not me.
I eventually got past that and realized what I went through. I was a little freaked out but got over it.
Then this month I have felt like a vengeance hovering around me. I can get headaches, vile thoughts, physical pain.....whatever. Then it goes away
when I realize I am being targeted out of spite, or in an effort to wear me down.
Every time things like that happen I feel I have activated more of myself. Like the parts I put away for harder times are being forced to activate
now. I am sorry I can't explain it beyond that.
I find myself with more energy after these attacks. I in turn need less meditation and time for recharging.
I think someone opened a can of bait on us. We are being fished to serve the enemy and open more of those lesser energies up to the world. I think the
excess energy I have is because some have fallen prey to these efforts and have given up their source ....."field". Like finding an allies shield on
the ground and not seeing him around near it.
Whatever it is that we have being done to us, it feels like a massive influx has been called to assist the fallen. We have to be on guard. The only
thing that will be wagered now is our will and our resolve. Sides are being chosen, and some are repeating history by siding with the enemy. It
happens every time he comes to destroy us. Each time we grow from our fallen allies. This time around I think we will finally have enough juice to
challenge him. Our field is growing and the cycles are reducing.
If you think that insane then fine. Ok.
To the rest....hold it down.
edit on 21-7-2012 by BIHOTZ because: (no reason given)