Initially, I blamed my father for being a first rate, psychologically, emotionally, and sometimes physically abusive bastard.
Then I blamed society for holding me down.
Then I blamed my father again, because, why not.
Then, in a moment of clarity, I stopped blaming and decided to start living again.
It took 4 years and a great deal of will power to get straight, but I did it.
My moment came when I lost everything I owned for the second time, after getting kicked out of my apt.(again) in the middle of November...crack is
(by the way, that isn't meant to be a reference to illegal drug use. It is just a fact pertaining to why I didn't have money to pay rent, since
this is a thread about wasting your life by doing such things. No glorification inteneded or inferred)
While sleeping in my buddy's old car in his backyard (unbeknownst to him...I still had a smattering of pride), I thought, WTF am I doing?
Not everyone has that moment, or when they do they disregard it and go back to self flagellation.
Simple fact is, you can't change if you don't want to, no matter what resources are available or unavailable.
I never wanted anyone's help, and neither do they...so get on with your life, and leave them to theirs, such as it is...
It's to short to spend concerning yourself with someone Else's self improvement
edit on 20-7-2012 by ViktorHaze because: clarification on the
T&C'S for to SMOA...