reply to post by NarcolepticBuddha
I always get a little mad and sad when I read a post like yours. It is not easy to get through life in general, but for some of us - you have to get
through everything else, and still have to deal with the high strangeness on top of it all. It is not easy by any stretch, and certainly not easy to
come out in any fashion and tell your story. Thank you for doing so - I hope it helps you to feel a little better about it. Being able to come to a
site like this and read about others' experiences has helped me tremendously - and it sounds like it is doing the same for you.
I have been dealing with the same sorts of things since I was 12 - it'll be 28 years this September 18. I wish I had some great words of wisdom for
you, you'd think I'd have some after dealing with it for so many years. I guess the only thing I can say is that you are not alone in this. I
don't know how much of a comfort that is to you, but in a strange way it has always made me feel a little better.
I too love sleeping against the wall, with the covers over my head. I'm almost 40 and I still sleep like this. And no - the "greys" don't look
like they do in the movies, that's for sure. No matter if they come from our reality or another - when they are here, they are most definitely real.
To this day I still don't know why exactly I was picked - or rather, my family - but me in particular out of my siblings and other family members. I
can only guess, like everyone else - which is SO frustrating. I feel like surely I have all the answers locked in my brain, if only I could remember
everything instead of bits and pieces. I've always been left with a general feeling of frustration - not wonder and amazement, like I would like to
have, considering I have had encounters with another species of intelligent beings.
I guess the thing that makes me the maddest is how they come into my life - physically into my home - what is supposed to be my sanctuary - without
even asking first. Like I'm a dumb animal that is SOOOO far below them that they can't possibly have a conversation with me first.
I know myself. I think I would have agreed to pretty much anything if a "higher" being came to me and explained what was going on. Am I too dumb
to understand? Perhaps. But aren't they supposed to be SO much smarter? Couldn't they take the time to even learn a little of our sign language?
Throw up a peace-sign or something, just to alleviate my fears a little? Anything??
I personally think they care about how they make us feel about as much as our scientists and researchers care about how they are making the animals
they are studying feel when they take and tag and release them. Not much, not much. They are much more concerned with the data they are collecting
to worry with how the creatures they are messing with "feel" about it. And at least some of them - like the ones that work with dolphins and
primates and such - are trying, and being successful with communicating with them.
So - we can do it, but they can't? Or won't, most likely. So who is truly the "higher" group of beings here?
And it is not as if I can't wrap my brain around this - I have HAD to in order to function in life. So why all the secrecy? Why not just come down,
and instead of standing there all weirdo-like - why not just say "Hello - don't be afraid, we're just here to watch over you" - or something like
that?? Yes, it would be freaky - and yes. it would be hard to deal with at the time. But it would be a lot better than the silent treatment that
many of us get from them. Leaving us to wonder and try to figure things out for ourselves, with only guesses to cling to as explanations.
I have read that it is because they are not supposed to interfere, but if that's the case - then why are they interfering?? I'd say messing with
kids in their homes without their, or their parents, permission is most definitely interfering!
Do they simply not care about how what they are doing affects us? Then I say screw them - screw them very much. How would THEY like if someone did
the same sort of thing to them?
Anyway, I wish you all the best. I hope you get some concrete answers someday - but if not, remember that that's ok too. You already know something
that others may wonder about for their whole lives, and never know for sure: for better or for worse, we are not alone.