reply to post by NarcolepticBuddha
When I was a child I was scared of ghosts and I could see them in my head every night I went to bed. I did go through a phase when I needed to keep a
light on so they wouldn't haunt me in the darkness behind my eyes. The odd thing is that the "up close and personal" face that would haunt me was
what I thought through my inexperienced eyes was a skull, so I transferred my fear to human skeletons. It wasn't until later in life when the
archetypical image of a grey came into the media, that I realized the the image of a skull, this grey emotionless face was the face of the large
almond eyed grey alien.
One night I had the most terrible dream, I am pretty sure it was a dream, but the place was at the school I attended. We where in class when suddenly
the room was filled with these greys and they where extraordinarily nimble and fast and they chased and caught all the children in my class including
me. In this dream they where without any doubt the large headed almond eyed creatures with long arms depicted as greys, I don't know why but the
length of their arms really stick out in my mind.
It must have many years later before the enduring image of a grey appeared in pictures in papers or magazines but when I first saw them I shuddered as
I remembered the face from the nightmares of my childhood.
I know this sounds daft, it sounds daft to me, but it was later in my teans that I noticed that the inside of my nose was distorted. The inside of my
right nostril there is a cavity going towards the center but in my left nostril their is a dome going outwards and I have always had difficulty
breathing through the left side particularly if I caught a cold. It just seems odd to me that I can never remember when this appeared and I am certain
it was not like that when I was a child.
For the past few years now, I have experienced a pain that occurs around the same time every night. It's not exactly the same time each night but
within an hour or two. It starts of as a slight ache almost like a toothache but I can't pinpoint it. Then it spreads across my face and up over my
left eye and then through my entire head. The pain is really uncomfortable and quiet severe but after 20 minutes or so it disappears again. This
occurs every night without fail between 10:00 pm and Midnight. I can never pinpoint where the pain comes from but something always brings me back to
the thought that it may emanate from the bulge in the cartilage of my nostril. I am not the kind of person who goes to the doctors, If I do it is just
for a prescription of strong painkillers because I believe I can heal myself and I usually do.
Because of my reluctance to see a doctor, I have never mentioned the bulge in my nostril nor the pain I have experienced the past few years. I
haven't spoken about this to anybody in fact, and so this is the first time I have shared this with a single soul. I think it is because of the
honesty of your post that has prompted me to mention it at all.
I have experienced sleep paralysis most of my adult life and it wasn't until I read about this condition on ATS that I knew anybody else experienced
it. I used to call it the buzzes. That is how it always manifests itself although the word buzz can't describe fully what happens to me. It is like
an intense electrical feeling that resonates in my head but what happens is, I wake up and my mind becomes sharp and focused but my body is
completely asleep. My consciousness wakes up to a dark and desolate place and most of the time I am completely alone with my thoughts but on a few
occasions I have seen them. Not the greys but the Demons right there out of nowhere in my face. They remind me of gargoyles on the pillars of some
churches, hideous and terrifying black leathery faces with a sharp dark red ridge each side of it's face . This is when I panic and search
frantically to find the muscles to wake up,usually in a cold sweat and exhausted from fear.
For those who have never experienced sleep paralysis, you will never understand how real it all is. Your mind is so alert but it doesn't even occur
to you that it is a lucid dream which is how I rationalize it now.
Thankfully I haven't had the "buzzes" for a few years now. I am now in my sixties and I do find myself reading ATS and other sites that discuss
about aliens, I feel as though I am just waiting, as if I have some rendezvous to meet, I am convinced that aliens are multidimensional and for the
most part they don't need to arrive as I believe they are already here and always have been. I don't fear death, nor aliens now. I know without any
doubt that there is an incredible love just beyond our perception and what is happening is natural and I believe is necessary for our evolution. Thank
you for your honest story, it may prompt others to relate things that have never seen the light of day.