posted on Jul, 14 2012 @ 12:47 AM
reply to post by Apollo7
I am doing well, thanks! My cancer has been in remission for a great number of years and shows no sign of returning. I do still struggle with many
health issues related to the intense chemotherapies and steroid treatments. But I consider myself very blessed to be in such great shape.
However, I would say my entire social life has become irreparably devastated during my experiences. My friends and family soon got over the "new hat"
feeling of my illness and let me fall to the wayside. I spent many years alone chatting only with nurses and doctors. I have had a very hard time
making friends in college as well.
The supposed visitations seem to have stopped when my cancer struck. They slowly got replaced by more frequent and vivid sleep paralysis episodes
accompanied by visual and auditory hallucinations. They occur from time to time, but are not as common as they used to be. Make no mistake, they still
happen sometimes. I still do seem to be in some limited contact with "someone" or "something" through the sleep paralysis though. They seem to incite
me to astral travel as well.
And I still am afraid to sleep sometimes for fear of what I might see upon waking. But, I think I survived and grew stronger from the experiences.
I certainly feel among kindred souls on ATS. I am glad to have such a community to express what I've needed to say to my friends and family for so
long..but for many reasons, couldn't.
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