posted on Jul, 19 2012 @ 09:45 AM
Hello All, Today is the 19th July and I have an update of sorts. I sopke with my neighbor at length over the last two days. We cried, then we cried
some more. I was told the whole story. It was heartbreaking hearing it. But hearing the facts from the parents was was an eye opening expereince.
They let me know this was a mental health issue, and had been for quite awhile.His mom told me that they left home at 12:30(noon). Simply went to the
grocery store right up the road, the father found him at 1:08 pm. She said he must have done it as soon as they left. He left a note, about 4
sentences long. More of an apology she said.
They told me the first time he ever wrote a suicide was when he was 11 years old! The first time he ever mentioned it he was 9 years old. That's 4th
grade. They told me it was not really a matter of "if" but a matter of "when". As they said you can't be there every second of every day
iimprisoning your child in your fear he will do somthing bad. They don't understand it, they said at the time this took place things had been great
for a pretty long time, no signs this would happen.
I let them know my feelings and the manner in which it hit me. I let them know my regret was I did'nt get to know him better. I made a promise that
the 5 year old will get to know me & my family. So one day when that little guy is growing into a man. I can say son, Ive known you since you were
that tall, stay on the right path and pursue your dreams and desires.
My wife & I let them know we want bend to the stigma of suicide. Our neighborhood will heal, it will take us all doing the doctoring, but we will heal
and be better folks for. Let em know if you need us were here. Need to cry, shout, scream. yell come get me I'll join ya. I will this Sat , when
their not home, cut down that tree. I have a friend that does that chainsaw sculpting, I plan on having him do somthing with it, so it's a reminder
of the beautiful young man & not (the tree). Thanks all who replied, you all helped me & my neighbors more than you could ever imagine. OYM1262.