Originally posted by Deetermined
reply to post by getreadyalready
So, what exactly did God say to you that night?
The gist of it was the particular phrase repeated many times in different variations. "He asked for it." "They asked for it." Etc.
I came to understand that before we choose to come into this world, we choose certain experiences for ourselves that will complete some aspect of our
spirituality. For example, a baby is born, it lays in its mothers arms for some brief moments and then passes away. What is the purpose? Well, for
the baby, that spirit needed to experience unconditional love and tenderness even if just for a moment. It needed someone to grieve over it. Maybe
the mother needed to feel entirely helpless, and needed to give that unconditional love, even if for only a brief moment, with no hope of it going any
further. Some people are born into poverty and despair, while others are born with a silver spoon in their mouth. They are all gaining something
from the experience that their spirit needed to experience.
Once I grasped that concept, and it wasn't easy, and I put up quite an argument, but eventually I believed it, and once I grasped that concept, then
the notion of evil seemed hard to understand. What is evil? It isn't anything. Suffering is intentional. People that rape and murder and take
advantage of others are just fulfilling that role to live that experience, take those consequences, understand those emotions, including regret and
remorse. The ones victimized are getting the flipside of the same emotion. It isn't evil, it just is what it is. An experience.
Of course, this doesn't justify going out and doing horrible things to people, hopefully the majority of us are beyond that in our evolution. Maybe
we started as a blade of grass, or an earthworm, and we've come all the way to what we are now by experiencing every aspect of this world. Maybe the
killers were predatory in their last incarnation, and they haven't come to grasp this incarnation just yet. Maybe the Gandhi's and Mother Teresa's of
this world are on their last journey and they're ready to join God once and for all.
I'm only speculating of course, this wasn't all in the conversation, the conversation with God only served to ease the anguish I had watching my son
suffer, and to empower me that I was his father for a reason. That son was given to me, because I could fix him. He wanted to suffer, but he also
wanted to persevere, and I am here to be the person that doesn't always follow the rules, but I get things done because they need to be done. It was
no accident that baby boy came to me, and I needed to follow my instincts.
Since then, I've tried to follow my instincts a lot more often, and I've stopped worrying about the repercussions of my actions. I would never
intentionally hurt anybody, but I trust that I'm here for a reason, and the opportunities and experience that open themselves up to me are no
accident, and I am perfectly equipped to deal with them. I have a lot less regret, and a lot less second-guessing, and a lot less stress. I don't
worry so much about all of the world's ailments that are outside of my control. Everyone is getting exactly what they asked for.
8-7-2012 by getreadyalready because: (no reason given)