posted on Sep, 19 2012 @ 11:03 AM
Originally posted by Aronolac
reply to post by lupodigubbio
Answer: It sure is not a charmed life with you as I feel there are circumstances surrounding your choices for a simple life which are a little forced
and this causes backlashes of the psyche– yours and another one. Generally speaking, the life in the country is more comfortable because of lots of
things that are not there in suburbia or the city. However, the human life is vastly more complicated because it requires input from sources that
can sometimes only be found in the city. You are a case in point I believe. All of this is to tell you that as best I can tell, you are ill at ease
with certain elements of life that the country seems to put before you and you can not escape viewing it and experiencing it.
Spirit is “home” for you and quite willing to answer your call for direction, but you are not alone in wanting one thing and hoping for another
subconsciously. Since I do not have the wherewithal to call that information out directly to you (it is information that was developed in your
childhood and it carries quite an emotional punch over issues you prefer not to address), I can only suggest to you that you search your emotions and
where you hit a hot spot, deliver an ultimatum to your self that it no longer will have any more effect on you from now on.
Once this buried issue is recognized and the emotions resolved, THEN you have an excellent chance in finding how to thread the needle of your life
through the maze of choices your life style affords you. The human psyche, to be understood, is like playing that old game of pick up sticks where
you have to take one stick off the pile at a time without bringing the hole pile down on you and you lose the game (understanding). I see nothing so
serious that you need fear working introspectively now and then to catch yourself out as to what it is you truly could find and do that would make you
smile all day doing it. It may even be the case of a mixture of applications of your talents over a wider range of kinds of work than just staying in
the country with the animals which please you so much. Spirit can not easily work with conflicting desires especially when they are hidden so well
you mistake your own motives to improve yourself.
Thanks for the quick response, I do appreciate you taking the time to read this.
I am still trying to digest your very impressive and accurate post regarding my situation, especially the knowing of another psyche involved. I wish
i had a clearer vision on what exactly is the process to find those blocked emotions from my past, considering I feel extremely brain-fogged when it
comes to focusing on them. Barely remembering happy memories at all, and anything emotionally charged from my childhood seems to escape me. In all
truth, I do recognize contradictory desires in my want of moving to the countryside.
In many ways I feel there is an escapist force that drives this desire, especially in the light of these earth changes, and also the fact that I
can't possibly keep so many animals in the city anymore in the most practical of reasons. Maybe I willed it this way to force myself into making the
transition, but in a desperate way.
Longing for this lifestyle and escaping trials and yet fearing its manifestation in many other ways.