reply to post by Aronolac
I just stumbled onto this thread, and decided to read it all before posting. I see it has sort of fizzled out, but I hope you might indulge yet
another questioner. I thank you in advance for your time and efforts. It must take a lot of time to address so many people, and I am acutely aware
that I'm asking for something from you that I can't give back. So, I do appreciate you taking the time to answer.
I give you full permission to access my inner spiritual presence. I believe you referred to it as the Indwelling?
I'm a very content person. I love my life. I love my family. But I have this feeling of "red alert" and have for the past several years. It just
feels like I need to hunker down and be ready - but I have no idea what for. I feel strongly that I will need to somehow be in place for some kind of
task, but what it is is not clear at all.
Lately, this has become more urgent. The thing that resonates with me, and tends to calm me is the idea of service. That feels right. It feels like
I will need to help in some way? I'd like to know what this role is (because I'm almost certain I do have it) and what destiny (for lack of a better
word) is going to be mine.
I've been searching for years for some kind of glimmer, but I realize my methods are external, not internal. I want to be able to access my
"Indwelling," but so far, I've felt like I am not able to hear very often. Once, I did, and it was wonderful. But usually, I'm just blocked. I'm
trying to listen. I really am. I have asked for help and for the ability to be where I need to be, open to this voice.
1. I am a painter, but inside me I feel that this is not my calling. I've stopped selling my work, or caring much about selling it. The last two
works I've done have been for charity or to give to someone who was hurting. (I painted a portrait of their son, who had died) It's almost as if I'm
being directed away from this as any kind of career. Like it's irrelevant. I need to say, I'm not really a hobbyist. For several years prior, I was
selling work for enough to make it worthwhile financially. Now, I just don't care about making money, and certainly not about becoming known. It's
just, meh. Is this me just being lazy, or discouraged, or is it me being directed away from this path?
2. What will my role be? Does it involve being a support person for my husband in his role?
3. Why am I feeling so strongly that I need to save seeds? I'm amusing, even to myself. I save seeds from all my vegetables, and plant my own
seedlings. I feel totally compelled to do this. Even as a kid, I used to play fantasy games where I planted little gardens and put up the produce
for winter. Odd game for a kid when all my friends were playing with Barbies. I remember that it felt 'important' to do this, somehow.
4. Are we where we need to be? Is Ohio a place that will be hit by the coming chaos, or is it a place that will be spared the worst of it? My
husband feels we need to sit tight here. I wonder...
And the biggest one:
5. How can I get the ability to hear that inner voice more clearly? I have often invited it in. I also try hard to look for signs, but...so far,
nada. Who was the voice I heard? It did sound very calm and matter of fact. Who are these guides I have? If you can dig up names, that would be
I thank you once again for your answers.
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