I hope that this post might be of use to brethren and non masons alike. Hopefully I will be able to present myself in a way that all find easy to
understand but I must warn you that some of the information I will present some may find distressing, especially if they have been effected by the
same issues. If this is the case please PM me if you wish to discuss further.
First though I need to take ownership of the thread, therefore I will lay some ground rules out for those wishing to reply and hopefully enable the
mods to easily deem what is off topic and what is not.
Please only post if you are willing to add to the thread in a positive way.
Please debate and not argue, for those unable to differentiate between the two, debating is usually done by those that hold a view but have an open
mind to others point of view, arguing on the other hand is done by a person who is unwilling to listen to another's point of view and is single minded
in the information they want to put forward.
Please offer evidence if your purposing a fact or say that is just your belief or opinion. Evidence in my opinion is something presented where those
offering the proof have no vested interest or agenda though if it comes from your own experience please state.
For clarification when I say secret I am using the Oxford definition as provided below, in the context of the adjective "not known or seen"
not known or seen or not meant to be known or seen by others:
how did you guess I’d got a secret plan?
the resupply effort was probably kept secret from Congress
[attributive] not meant to be known as such by others:
a secret drinker
fond of or good at keeping things about oneself unknown:
he can be the most secret man
something that is kept or meant to be kept unknown or unseen by others:
a state secret
at first I tried to keep it a secret from my wife
something that is not properly understood; a mystery:
I’m not trying to explain the secrets of the universe in this book
a valid but not commonly known or recognized method of achieving or maintaining something:
the secret of a happy marriage is compromise
a prayer said by the priest in a low voice after the offertory in a Roman Catholic Mass.
be in (on) the secret
be among the small number of people who know something:
only Linda was let in on the secret
without others knowing.
make no secret of something
make something perfectly clear:
they made no secret of their hatred for him
late Middle English: from Old French, from Latin secretus (adjective) 'separate, set apart', from the verb secernere, from se- 'apart' + cernere
Before I can say where I am I feel it may be useful to know some of the path that has led me to this point.
I am 43yrs old, married for 16yrs and have a teenage son. I am Buddhist and I am a Freemason.
I was born in 1969 in the UK and my family was poor, to the point of having to go without food, I experienced my first life changing experience at the
age of 6 when I was sexually abused by a care giver, this led me to questioning life at the age of 8. Between 8 and 20 I tried to take my own life on
a couple of occasions. I self harmed, cutting and through drug abuse to the point I was a heroin addict (but broke no law apart from substance
mis-use, I did not commit crime to support myself). I was suffered constant verbal, physical and emotional abuse, my step father never called me by my
name, only "you - boy".
At the age of 20 I had my second life changing experience. I realised that the life I was leading would only lead to my own destruction and it was
time to start giving back to society, it was here that I started my career in care work, spending from 20 to present supporting those that are far
more disadvantaged than me.
It was also at 20 that I discovered Buddhism, within Buddhism I found that my suffering is a result of my own actions, I had to take responsibility
and change, no one could do it for me. This gave me great strength and I decided to become ordained. I dis robed a number of years later, not due to
my faith but due to the fact that meditation brings to the surface things that have been buried, and as you can guess from what I already posted, I
had a lot of things buried
Ok, I have revealed the secrets of my past, not all of them as there are things I am not yet willing to share, so they will remain secret, but
hopefully you know me a little bit better now, which was the purpose of divulging the information I have (please no sympathy).
Why did I become a Freemason?
I have stated in previous threads that I don't like dogma and also I experienced persecution for my beliefs. I had known a few Freemasons for a number
of years and each and everyone of them appeared to be upstanding individuals. Unfortunately I was under the impression that I needed to be invited and
it was only a couple of years ago when I had an in-depth conversation with whom is now a brother, that I discovered I have to ask.
I could see the value of joining the fraternity in that it offered a safe and stable environment, free from being judged and persecuted. It offered me
a group of male role models that I had sorely lacked when growing up. It offered me love and support. It offered me a new tool for self development.
All of these it still does.
To start I will paraphrase the paragraph above beginning "I could see the value....." Then I will share a secret, the first secret I discovered
was........... I can be a better person than I thought I could be. Then I discovered I can be more confident and that I am valued.
I enjoy the sense of belonging, the practices and the lodge nights, the drinks and the conversations.
People join for the right and wrong reasons, it isn't to network though I have shared some parenting techniques with brethren that have younger
children than me.
The secrets in Freemasonry are secrets in the sense that the information is hidden, it remains hidden until you discover them, they reside in your
heart and no you do not have to be a Freemason to discover them, it is just that for some of us it helps.
Some things in Freemasonry I will not share, these are mundane things but by my not revealing them I show my brothers that they can share other
secrets, for example a brother may tell me of family issues, work issues etc.
Things that he wishes to remain hidden or kept secret, private things.
As I previously stated I have secrets from my past that I will never share with anyone..... What happened on my wedding night, my sex life with my
wife, confidential information about the people I support etc.
I hope you find this information useful, if you have any questions or wish to debate points please ask.
Oh if I don't reply straight away it is because I do not sit at the computer for log periods of time, but I promise I will answer at some point.
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