posted on Jun, 27 2012 @ 04:28 PM
I don't know what to do. At all. I'm a polytheist agnostic but was raised methodist for the first 23 years of my life. I'm 39 now. I have decided
to go agnostic cuz it makes sense to me.
though I have 'refound God' a few times in the past 10 years and would keep HIm, I always went back to agnosticism cuz it again makes the most
HOWEVER, every time I'd be christian, things worked great in life. I'd find work, have little stress. I go agnostic and things mess up left and
right. I dont LIKE the idea that a fairy tale is making my happy and bringing good into my life. Makes me think it's REAL. I dont know what to think.
I can't find work period, have a misdemeanor from 02 for cashing a work check that was forged i found out later. As I didn't have a bank at the
time, I cashed it at the local grocery. So now I got a retail theft. Mcd's, NO one will hire me cuz of it. I can NOT get it expunged due to info in
the packet i got from the courts - something in there makes my case unexpungable. I think it's cuz i did jail time for it.
I have had tons of job offers but the moment that comes up, they have to reneg the offers.
I'm THISCLOSE to going christian again to let my life get on the right track again. I feel insane for this.
I Hate it. I HATE IT. I really don't
know WHAT to do.