reply to post by Auricom
I can relate to this somewhat and my thoughts are this is something you have to go through. SO do not blame yourself for not being your usual self.
I.e unable to cope as you have been. While you were coping I believe what you were really doing was ignoring facing your pains. Eventually when we do
this they will build up to a point were we can no longer contain them they have to get out. This is all part of the process. So rather than trying to
run away into third person go head first into this and allow the emotions to be felt. You can still keep in the back of your mind that this is a
transitional period that will also have an end to it as do all things we go though. When you get through this the one thing I can promise it that you
will have a whole new lease of life and you will be tons lighter as a person.
Just remember a few things. You are allowed to feel pain, be sad, be weak, be lost and confused. You are allowed to accept that your emotions are too
strong for you to control at the moment. Infact this is a good thing in context because it measn despite having gone though (what ever it is that
you've been through) you are still alive and still have feelings. You're human still.
When in the past I went through something similar this mental projection really helped me process the worst of it.
Basically I would hug myself in my mind and say I forgive you for allowing all that hurt to get to you. I forgive you (myself) for allowing people to
do *XYZ* to you. Then I would imagine meeting myself at a point in time when i was hurting but safe and in my mind I would go up to me as me today and
give myself a huge great big warm hug and cocoon myself as if i was a child. Always saying it is ok I love you.
I did this as often as I could through out the day for years and for every time I did this I would feel a little more at ease. These days I am finally
free of the past hurts.
Also try not to make any stories or ask the why questions when you feel the most depressed. Just let it pass through you allow the pain to be there
but do not add any particular thoughts to them.
Finally if you can confide in someone you trust about how you feel so that you can talk through what ever it is that hurts you so much. Sometimes that
lets the mind rest from trying to solve the issue. Just saying out loud or typing it out for that matter helps the mind sort through the experience.
Sometimes talking to strangers is the easier thing. If you feel that then do not feel ashamed /embarrased to do so.
I am more than willing to lend an eye to your pain if you need someone to hear you without passing judgement.
great big hugs and so much love in abundance to you.
I hope some of that helps a little at least.
Oh and on the focusing issue, you are focusing just not on the things you used to focus, right now you are focused on YOU and you are very much
entitled to do so. You are the most important being in your existenc, without you you would not be, so allow yourself the time to be the focus of your
attention because you both need it and deserve it right now. Everything else is second.
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