posted on May, 26 2017 @ 01:16 AM
a reply to:
BlueMule
This happened to me when i was sick of my insecurities. I was going through alot...and all of a sudden, i thought to myself, Had i not been
"prideful", and "envious" , there would have been no soft spot for my environment to poke...it was my prideful self and envious self whom had said
"hey, you, life experience, have a shot here, he's wide open" so to speak....and when i realized this, my mind's natural inclination was to...quite
literally...turn around and look at my pride and envy, as if it was in trouble and had done something wrong...almost in a similar way to getting
called into the principles office lol, and i would even be suprised if the way i was scolded when i was younger has something to do with the way my
mind scolded these parts of myself...scare it away.
In those moments when my minds eye was staring directly at these egotistical parts of myself, my ego #ing RAN AWAY. I could feel a huge mental weight
lift from my brain, i could actually FEEL IT IN MY HEAD, i wouldnt be surprised had my cranial pressure been monitored, there would have reflected a
numerical decrease...as a matter of fact, i am 100% positive there would have. i am talking about physiologal changes, right on the spot, due to brain
activity and human will.
Now...you can read that story al day long, but the greatest part of this story, is the fact that what lead to this happening was me literally looking
for salvation...i was going through a TERRIBLE time...and i felt #ing terrible man...i had always been a very happy person...so...REPENTANCE HAPPENED.
NATURALLY. I am sorry , i am tired...but please, anyone who has had a similar experience...please call me ...781-913-2780