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Originally posted by BlueMule
It can happen after mystical experiences. It's a kind of fatigue.
Originally posted by Visitor2012
Has anyone here experienced this? For a while, I was feeling so close to the kingdom. I was seeing small miracles and witnessing amazing revelations within myself. Felt a sense of compassion for people around me, felt like my purpose was unveiling itself before me.
But lately, I've been in a terribly dark and lonely mood. Not depression, but an overwhelming feeling of desiring change in my life. An increased desire for my true self to emmerge and embrace me in its light and abundant provisions. My spiritual development has taken me far into mystic lands. But I'm still here, working 9 to 5 jobs that I absolutely dislike. I'm giving 80% of my energy to people and tasks that drain me of my life vitality. Plus I'm an extreme introvert, I do not like to motor-mouth my way through life. Im not much of a talker, and I feel awkward in social environment surrounded by people who like to hear themselves talk. I don't take myself very seriously and my pride is pretty much hammered out of me. I just want to get off of this hamster wheel, yet it seems that everywhere I turn, the forces that be, are making it nearly impossible to escape. Any one else in this dark night of the soul?
edit on 25-6-2012 by Visitor2012 because: (no reason given)