Originally posted by SibylofErythrae
reply to post by justseth
You going to write more about Joan? If you're off planet, maybe some physical descriptions would help. Are ya human, or is this a bit of the Jame
T. Kirk blue ladies like bow-chick-wow-wow?
lol. I had written more about Joan but I had to check with her first about what I remembered about it. She sair that I could use her as an example of
a spiritual malady (her diability) because she thought it had benifit to people, but I had to edit some of the parts out. I do beleive in people's
Talking about the past helps me releive some of the trauma of it I think.
So I met Joan, but she at first just hated me lmao
It was nice her hating me. I'm loud and overpowering, maybe a little over-familiar at times but it was nice to make a female friend and not have that
constant romantic tention there. lol She'd talk behind my back about how I was a lot different than the Sirians describe me, and say that I lacked
the dignity and maturity that she expected an ex-Destoryer to have. AND she was dead serious about it too. She did not like me at all!
But I would kind of chuckle to myself about her telling me during our introduction that she was an "Examiner of Heresies". I knew why she said that
first thing...Joan is very proud of how intelligent she is. I think she's like classified as a 16 (real high, cosmic even), even defining herself by
how smart she is. The examination of "heresies", most of the time new ideas, new spiritual techs and techniques, is important because it leads to
new better things, better heavens, and stuff.
But u have to be very mentalized to be able to examine correctly, to not be taken in by something imaginary or fearful.
She really only has one real weakness, anger. I looked at her one time and its not that she's a bad person, she has like a wound in her spiritual DNA
that kind of pops and sputters, triggering an energy that approximates anger, or rage. She's really good about controlling it, but its about the only
thing that she's truly self-conscious of. But she practices meditation daily to keep it in check, never carries weapons, and I think she's actually
become a more polite, skillful commnuicator because of it.
I do believe in a person's privacy, especially medically, so I'll be cautious here, but her DNA "injury" makes it painful for her to be around men
that she finds attractive. How she combats that is she is always working on something in her Mind, and if around a smart male will be in constant
motion, both spiritually and mentally purposefully. And as long as she does this, she's fine, happy even a little flirtacious at times.
But one day, after joking around with her (and I WAS going very easy on her) she looked at me sadly and angrily and asked me why I had to be such a
big jerk all the time. I calmed down quickly at that because there's a mild weapons effect if you talk critically of anyone higher than something
like a Master Controller. I didn't want to hurt her, but I knew that she also knew this, so I knew that she was very serious about my behavior.
So I explained to her about what happened to me at the Battle of Safehaven how I had acheived my 9th Initiation by participating with the Sirian
Serapis in bringing to a halt an out-of-control Sirian life process. But, in the process, became a divinity, complete with thoughtform. I told Joan
that its difficult to modulate my being-level behavior because of this.
For those of you that don't beleive me, does the name Safehaven resonate in you somehow? It kind of spooks people a bit when they are like, I've
never heard of that name, but somehow I know about what happened there.
And she kind of smiled and said "Seth, did you know you are actually quite charming when you are talking intelligently." To which I gave her a very
non-plussed look and said in my God-Voice "Joan, you know damn well what my intelligence rating is..." but I got her point and asked her "You are
not going to be happy until I use my full intelligence are you?" to which she smiled seductivly. "I know every evil of Woman, Joan. That smile is
only to convince me to do what you want me to do." shaking my head. And she laughed respectfully and admitted that yes, I was right.
And I laughed too, and said "Joan, my friend, if it'll make you happy, I'll try to do so." I might tell you guys what my intelligence rating is at
some point, but its really high. So I, reading her mind asked her "I have concerns Joan about a practice of yours and was wondering if we could talk
about it." She knew instantly what I was talking about but had the courage to talk about it. Reflecting on it, I think this was the moment that Joan
and I actually became true friends.