I need prayer guys..
I recently got assaulted, taking licks trying to defend my dad from my psycho brother.. Consequently I was made homeless because i was pressing
charges to get him away from my dad.. My mom has disowned me because I dared to go to the police.. During this my girlfriend took me in for a few
days, however on monday my old PTSD from my army days hit me hard, because of the stress, and I ended up on a heart monitor in hospital. They
normalised me but when I got picked up my girlfriend started to accuse me of all sorts of vile things, even saying she did not want my one and only
panic attack in 8 years around her kids. Accusing me of being a drunk, and because she has thrown me out of her house a few times for petty
differences In my still anxious and panicked state I left to get me some house security.. I ended up in a hotel on a two day bender just wanting to
die and sending her vile emails.. I woke up thursday in a slum hotel, hungover as hell, suitably scared at what I had done and the fact I nearlly
killed myself, then went to the Lake district to recouperate.. Now the alcohol has left my system over the last few days reality crept back in, the
alcohol turned me into nasty lying bastard which I am not.. Im still homeless, now I have no girlfreind, which I deserve, no family, no froends, just
a job.. I am totally alone in the world, missing the woman I love, and in agony over it.. I refuse to drink again as it has lead me here.. I would
rather have The Holy Spirit anyway.. Please prey for me? X
edit on 4-8-2012 by EvanB because: (no reason given)