posted on Jun, 13 2012 @ 08:36 PM
reply to post by smyleegrl
My own history of faith has been interesting (to me, at least). I started out in junior high school as a goth/Satanist, and then, at 14, pretty much
overnight, I started studying prophecy. Initially, it was a fear of hell that made me believe. Admittedly, this was the wrong way to start, but it
happened the way it happened, so I can't do anything about it now.
After a few years, I started questioning God and the Bible in favour of probability and science. Again, almost overnight, I began identifying as
atheistic. This was sparked by a couple things, the most significant of which was my increasing disbelief in Creation and my inability to reconcile
the idiots doing stupid things in God's name with a sovereign God.
Then, for a university project, I interviewed a minister from my hometown whom I had never met before. My project was on "truthiness" - the fact
that people make their own version of truth based on what they want to be true (as coined by Stephen Colbert). My intent was to show just how
ridiculous religious people sound. What I hadn't anticipated was that this minister would actually be both intelligent and convincing in his defence
Ultimately, it was through him that the full Gospel was presented to me, and I was baptized into Christ. Now, I preach alongside the minister I had
intended to undermine. I still find issues in the churches (our two congregations here are FULL of them), but I've since realized that we can't
start blaming God for man's stupidity.
Anyway, this was really just one long anecdote. I was lucky in that I bottomed out before I entered the ministry. In fact, it was this failure of my
previous faith that led to the new life in Christ that I have so much joy in today. I certainly can't claim any strength in where I am...I'm here
because of what proved to be my biggest weakness. Unfortunately, some preachers only realize that they have this weakness after they get established
in ministry - case in point, the subject of this thread.