posted on Jun, 9 2012 @ 07:48 AM
Oh dear, where to begin? Well I've notice quiet a few use this forum for venting relationship problems. I guess that what I want to do.
I met my husband when I was 19. Buy amazing chance as I was not looking for love. Who wold be at 19? We dated very strong for 3 years, none of this on
again of again type of thing. We clicked straight away. Both still lived at home with our parents. Although I had seen others before, he was my first
After 3 years of dating we moved in together, life was great. Fitted into each others lives very easily. Although deep down one day i knew I'd like
to marry someone, I was honestly in no hurry. Never pressured him and always under the impression he would when & if he wanted. Simple, we loved each
other, lived as husband & wife.
The Xmas he popped the question was an ordinary one, woke up exchanged gifts, had coffee. I didn't see it coming. He sat next to me on lounge, pulled
out a ring, asked, I said yes & we both cried.
Our wedding was a wonderful day, as most are. Everything went to plan. Time now to get on with doing what we do, living an un dramatized life. So next
came babies, well so we thought. After 2 yrs. we found out we needed help, devastating at first but with the strong relationship we had nothing could
bet us. We jumped straight in to treatment always there for each other. The ups & lows could be enough to ruin any marriage but not ours, if anything
be became closer & stronger.
Babies came with the help, we know how lucky we were, a wonderful reward for all our hard work and we seemed to make good parents too.
Sorry for rambling on, just trying to get my head & heart back To this life, this place were we we're both so happy & most things were good & how it
So we're it begins to slip away...
We have both been smokers, ok ok we know it's bad for us & our kids. Tried a few times to give it away with no luck. Hubby decided to try a new
tablet which is suppose to work wonders ( this is not a medical conspiracy story, although has over tones of it ). Hubby gives up the fags easily & is
now off the tablets ,then after a while we both notice he is starting to not handle things well. He starts getting angry at the smallest things,
he's starting to get down on himself. After a hell of a lot of talking and about 6 mths of this he finally goes to doc who gives him anti depression
tablets and tells him he has anxiety . Great well at least we know. A few weeks and he seems to really pickup.
We have a couple of nearly normal months, but now I'm noticing something else. He's drinking has gone up a few notches. Nothing to worry about,
he's noticed and seems to have it under control .
Well its been about 18 mths sinse he started the smoking tablets, he's still on anti depressants and I'm pretty sure an alcoholic and I'm
absolutely devastated. He knows I am, I've told him. He knows he drinks too much, I've told him. He tries to cut back sometimes but slips right
back. He needs help but won't admit it, I feel like he's slipped away or maybe I'm moving away from him. Who knows there's only so much someone
can do to help, if the person don't want it, it's a lost cause. There is also only so much someone can take, I'm tired of it all. But sad, I don't
want the marriage to end. I feel like crap feeling like this behind his back even thought this is kind of therapeutic and you are all unknown. I feel
better for venting, was crying when I started.
Sorry if spelling or whatever is not great, I'm doing this from a phone. Thanks for reading if you have & no need to reply I think I can actually
smile again I also think its time to work on this again and get our love back. Get this mess sorted out.