reply to post by MAC269
I have many times where I felt like you....actually probably feel like that much more than I feel great full...
Usually it is some hardship, that I later see was a lesson, something selfish in me that was/is holding me back etc...
I see more and more that people who come into our lives and crap all over us and cause us hardships are a reflection of our own lessons, our
insecurities to get over, our straight up lack of gratitude all kinds of things..
I personally am going through some of the worst hell in my life right now.. a million things bogging down on me at once..
I pretty much talk to God 24/7, but mostly whining and complaining about what??? What am I whining and complaining about??? This guy who NEVER stops
whining and complaining.... he is sucking the very life outta me, so I am thinking, maybe I should spend more time thanking God instead of whining
about the whiner....... make sense??
I too felt kind of jealous because even though I have had encounters in the past, now that it is one of the hardest times in my life, I kinda wished I
could have some encounter....
then, ungrateful me gets another undeserved treat.... One sweet bird visited me on my sundeck when I went out on a smoke break from reading this
thread... thought, awe, sweet!
then, as I came back in, a bit more of a "poor me" attitude kicked in yet again, and sure enough, TWO MORE of the same sweet bird came right inside
my house together and hung out on the carpet and let me say "hi" to them for a bit..... (all while reading this thread remember)
Any skeptic will say it was a coincidence, but I feel it was an undeserved sign of love because My heavenly father knows I HAVE been facing some of
the big tough lessons for far too long at JUST and intensity I don't completely snap...... then I sense and offer for a "break" and I actually felt
myself resisting a break.... kinda like when a level in a video game gets almost impossible..... should I give up and use a cheat code, or try to do
it on my own?