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We are very much akin. When my mom passed away that is when it all started for me I was pissed that I had no control over it and as the other
tragedy's occurred and I could only stand by and watch it I totally stepped off the path and started trying to find ways around what I perceived as
not having the reins of my own life. You are right had I continued on who knows where I would have ended up. I still have struggles as everyone does
but I do what I can to get thru it and be the best version of myself I can. The gift that was spoken of that night which later became my son was the
best thing I will ever experience in my life. My son has changed me in ways that (he is 2) I still cannot put words to. Almost as though a match was
tossed deep inside me and I was burned out from the inside.
My son has opened up things to me that two years ago I never knew existed and if not for him I would never know these talents. His birth was the blank
canvas of a new life for me.
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I have to say, i'm in the same boat. After my dad passed away, which was a shock to say the least. In the hospital for an abscessed tooth, 35 days
later... he was gone. I went off the deep end. I was in Catholic schools my whole life but never felt a connection, needless to say, after my dad
passed, I felt even more disconnected from God. I was SO MAD
! I just didn't understand. Well, to make it short, now I do. If my dad didn't
die and I go through the situations I did afterwards.. & see the "signs" I do now, I would have not turned to God. I also would have never happened
upon this site.
I was reading a book one night at my friend’s house sometime after my dad passed, Heaven is 4Real, about a 4 year old boy who had surgery and met
Jesus and could see his parents at the time he was in surgery, he knew stuff he shouldn't of.. well it all of a sudden hit me, my dad is with God.
I started remembering things that happened while in the hospital, things said, things my dad wrote down.. One time we were in his room, my dad kept
moving his mouth & nodding and looking at the ceiling. We kept asking who he was talking to, he would point and mouth GOD or JESUS. At the time we
laughed it off that it was the meds he was on and what not.. I know now, that it was most definitely Jesus he was speaking to. I am almost positive
when he said that, it was about a week or so before he left us, it was like he was accepting his fate. For the last week he was here, he was just
about brain dead.
Oh and later, his girlfriend found his Baptism card. He was baptized on the same date he died, 55 years later. Baptism January 23, 1955, he passed
away January 23, 2010. If I had any questions before, I surely didn't after I saw that!!
Thank you for sharing your experiences. I never believe anything anyone says, but I believe you and thank you. I happened upon your posts and after
reading for hours the other night, started having more of my "signs". I love it, I can't even put into words how comforted it makes me. Also... I
NEVER comment like this on ATS lol..