I am writing because there are certain issues with my situation recently, and I have absolutely no idea what to react.
Now, let me start with a short description of my family. The people I consider them are my mother and my grandmother(my grandfather died, and my
father is gone).
My mother is some sort of a cultist believing in some higher power beyond description. I believe it's called kryon or something like that. Imagine she
comes to me twice a week with a 'message'(printed letter) from this being who tells her that everything will be fine, and we are only months away from
paradise, and well, I hold other kind of beliefs, and to me, all of it stinks like some cultist bollocks. It is possible it annoys me so much because
she reads like a robot, but all in all, it is mostly bull#(I wish not to elaborate at the moment). Also, she has a few copies of the watchtower.(so I
kind of don't know how to define what she believes in)
Anyway. My grandmother is a devout christian, waiting for Jesus to come. But not just devout. The absolute blueprint for a christian. Whatever the
church tells her, she would do without question.
Every attempt of mine, to tell her how bollocks is christianity, a way to control the masses through the denial of science, and some other cultist
ways, resulted in a rather aggressive backlash. Shouting, screaming, cursing, telling me how a godless heathen I am destined to go to hell. She always
says that christianity is the religion with the most followers, therefore it must be right. (BTW, she's the same person who thinks gun ownership
should be punished as first degree murder, for guns are made to kill people.)
Both of them think that power resides where it should reside, and we should commit to this world, because it is going pretty darn well. They believe
that the politicians run the countries, they...well you know. They devour all the crap the tally infuses into them. And yes, they watch it all day
long(from end of their work, till they go to sleep, and of course, they sleep while the tally is on) You cannot possibly imagine how indoctrinated
they are right until you talk to them about serious stuff.
They mostly consider me as a highly intelligent and well read one, right until the point when I start talking about my views. I tried to explain them
everything I could, while backing my claims with as much evidence as possible, about the men behind the curtains, their agenda. I even showed them the
'agenda 21', pointing out the nastiest aspects. All in all, I have put a lot of work to convince them, but they deny. They never could disprove my
theories, but they still deny, because 'these things are impossible, and god would not let these things happen'.
Well I do not say I am absolutely right in everything, but the pieces are kind of in place, and I feel I am very close to understanding things.
I always tried to keep claims I can't prove with evidence to a minimum, and most I have told them, I believe in. Not because somebody told me, but
because I read a lot, while trying to put the pieces together, while applying occam's razor to everything, and not letting fear control my way of
thinking through denial.
Anyway. Point is: a few days ago, they discovered about me, something I'd(with most of you) call survivalism. Just a pair of bug out bags, a manifesto
I have written about everything I believe in, with plans of what I wish to do in case of various outcomes, my routes of survival, a crapload of maps,
a few military knives. Nothing more than usual in this context. You know, no thermite, or blackpowder, c4 or any other kind of equipment suited for
explosions or any kind of sabotage. Also, I have no ranged weaponry, though I am currently in the building of a crossbow(hunting, for mostly it is
obsolete in a fight).
So they figured out that what I talk about I think seriously, and their absolute denial got to the point that they want me to be locked up in a crazy
person hospital(um, what is the word...asylum, maybe?)
They said that they believe I am planning to go on a killing spree of some sort. They talk about Breivik all day, and think I am planning to do the
same. I have no record of violence, or aggression. I kind of have asperger's, but I never ever ever hurt anybody without good provocation. And by
provocation, I mean I never attacked first(unless a man hurt a woman. I never could bear that sort of thing).
I have tried to explain, to tell. But they would never believe anything they have not seen in the TV.
BTW: 'This wasn't in the tv, so it did not happen' kind of mentality really brings out the devil from me. I get so angry because of it, I practically
cease to be able to speak.
What angers me even more, is the way they argue. Imagine two people shouting stupid claims at you tandem. Grown-up conversation with them is
impossible if they think otherwise. Their zerg-rush tactics cannot be outmaneuvered, especially considering that I am a rather calm and quiet person.
Believe me, I have tried to fight fire with fire, raising my voice at the same time. It did not work, they started throwing stuff at me.
Beating me when I was a defenseless child was one thing. After a while, you kind of learn to take the hits. But when they start using the same kind of
tactics politicians use, that kind of hits me more. 'My family is composed of spineless nutbags!' Well, it hurts.
Just for the sake of completeness, I would like to list the tactics I have seen from them:
-Panic mongering='You'll never have a job, you'll never have a wife or kids, you'll die alone and sad'(They kind of say this to me every single
-Ad hominem='You are just like your father, a man without honour, who deserves nothing but pity.'
-Projection=Needs not to be explained. They accuse me of the very same things they use against me.
-Scapegoating='It is the people like you who ruin the world.'
-Conflating violence with power='We treated you the way we did, so you will be a strong man.'
-Bullying=I already explained. They are just like the people I tried to avoid all through primary school.
-Confusion=They(I think, deliberately) trying to oppose certain points of arguments with statements that absolutely don't fit into the context.
-Invoking God=They know I am an atheist. A man who does not believe in god, cannot argue with this(when he tries, the argument starts to slide away
from the context).
-Saturation=They repeat the same statements at least 5 to 10 times.
-Disparaging education='This amount of reading made you insane.'
-Guilt by association=Claiming that the people I talk to, 'made me crazy'
So my question is: what is your way of enlightening people who are in absolute denial and devout worship of the tally? Who use the very same tactics
mainstream media uses to ruin the lives of so many great men and women, who are much better at arguing than me? What would you do in my situation? Can
they even lock me up?
Thank your for(if) reading it through.
P.S.: Sorry for the long post. It just felt good to write all this out of me.