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Originally posted by olaru12
Well thanks for asking...
Yes is the short answer but it needs qualification.
To make make myself happy I had to give up all resentments, adopt a plan to further my goals economically, emotionally and spiritually and stop manipulating people for my own selfish reasons.
With just a small amount of effort....I am living the dream that I knew would be my destiny.
My strategy was to meet everyone with a "how ya doin" listen to their response and actually care about them as a person.
Most of my fear and lonelyness has dissipated....so...."how ya doin?"
Originally posted by reclaimed
i usually dont read threads in this section
im glad i read this one
thanksedit on 4-6-2012 by reclaimed because: (no reason given)
Originally posted by Mr. D
reply to post by laffoe
No. Do slaves have fun? Are they "allowed" to have "fun"? Do prison inmates have "fun"? A prison with golden bars is still a prison.
Originally posted by ottobot
reply to post by laffoe
Thank you for your post, you are always trying to uplift people.
I was thinking about this recently: No matter how deep into depression and how isolated and hopeless and helpless and worthless I have felt, I have always found things to laugh at. I don't know how, I think it was a skill I picked up when I was a little kid so that I wouldn't be hurt by things people said. I see a bizarre quality to pretty much any situation, circumstance, any sentence that comes out of someone else's mouth. So, I laugh all the time. Most people are probably annoyed by it. I don't care, though, because humans are actually pretty funny, they just don't know it.
So, I guess I do have fun, even when I am broken and feel like dying. Not that it has really ever mattered, though, because even at the bottom of the barrel I laugh at myself for being so pathetic...
I realized, finally, that thinking I am pathetic for feeling emotional pain is something that needs to be changed. Nothing will change unless I change it myself. So, I learned to change, and I am learning to change, and I will learn to change.
But, still, learning to find actual joy, not just humor, in life has been a challenge. I am working hard to understand what joy feels like, and feel what joy feels like. It is confusing, but it gets better the more I understand.
Thanks again, Laffoe.edit on 6/5/2012 by ottobot because: (no reason given)