posted on Jun, 2 2012 @ 11:10 PM
I will offer a perspective from the point of a view of an occult student.
You have a stubborn thought-form. It could have been generated by somebody else who was in the same physical space as your or by members of your
family. It literally feeds off of your attention to it, becoming more stubborn and permanent with each fearful thought (and even those seemingly
constructive, such as asking for help). It can do to you anything that falls within the extent of your belief system.
What is key here is to take an objective look at the belief systems you have:
"have been taking place in my home for some time now"
"I've been dealing with this situation in our home off and on for a few years"
"I don't even like to talk about it, or think about it because then it seems I'm giving it energy or power. "
"No. It's not mommy, it's the spirit".
"I'm a very sensitive person and I've sensed spirits since my childhood"
"My husband and I were listening to coast to coast one night where someone was talking about aliens being inter-dimensional"
In summary, I am reading you are a person who assumes the following:
-Non-physical entities exist
-Non-physical entities can interact with the physical world, or at least people
-Non-physical entities can be made more powerful from the negative actions and reactions of people
-In general, fringe topics should not be dismissed
You also have a young daughter who seems to share in the victimization. Children's belief systems are very fantastic, flexible, and impressionable.
Your husband, who seems the least afraid seems to some how lessen the frequency and strength of the attacks when around. A symbol of stability and
strength causes chaos and susceptibility when absent. He is seemingly witnessing more and more of the attacks as time goes on. As he gives more and
more attention (even if its skeptical) to the testimonials of you and your daughter, he begins to invite the entity into his experience.
Now everything I wrote up there regarding your beliefs is all well and true, but only because you have habitually bought into it. This thing is
essentially a living, breathing concentration of life-force and energy devoid of any identity other than a sense of mischievousness and malice. The
take away is that it's your family's creation and that it much like a very young child or a pet in that its extremely trainable/impressionable and
It's funny that you said this line:
"I'm "seeing" this with my mind's eye. I can't explain it, I just know something is there. And it's presence makes me depressed and angry."
The mind's eye is a tool used in many forms of occult practice as a projector. Focus is combined with energy, which is projected out of the mind's
eye to affect the physical world. Habitually, you have been combining energy (emotionally charged attention) with focus (paying attention to the
entity) which is continually shackling it to your physical space and your family.
You mention you've used a few different banishing methods from some different magickal perspectives. You've got some Judeo-Christian stuff and some
Kabbalistic stuff and some Native American stuff up your sleeve but it hasn't worked this time. The problem is not the symbols you are working with,
but the belief system behind them.
In Judeo-Christian demonology, for example, symbols of Hail Mary's are extremely profound to the practitioner because they will represent a literal
lifetime of repentance, prayer, worship, and .etc that imbues the practitioners mind with a belief that they have the full power of God flowing
through their hands when they go to cast out an evil demon. In Kabbalah, the names of arch-angels are symbolic of divine forces that have been
meditated on and seen to be the literal cogs and wheels of the working of the universe. In Native-American perspectives, certain herbs are connected
to powerful nature spirits whom shamans have communicated with for many, many hours on end.
God created man in his image, and gave life to his body with the breath of spirit. We humans also have the breath of spirit, and we can give life to
our thoughts through habitual focus and energy. You have to make sure that your focus is one of deep belief in the symbol you are using.
To rid your life of this demon, you must update your perspective so that you truly believe you have absolute, divine control over any malevolent
entity and then use the correct symbol (chosen by your heart) to banish it. This task is large and it may be as simple as using simple psychological
affirmations or it maybe a study into demonologic texts and learning, for example, The Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram.
Symbols are like the body of man. The mental energy and attention we pour into them is the animating spirit. If you pour your spirit into a body which
is made of mush and cannot stand strong (using symbols without an absolute understanding of their meaning as well as conviction) it will die (fail)