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posted on May, 21 2012 @ 07:03 PM
I am one of the last people that I would have expected to be posting this right now, but I'm going to give it a shot. I have been debating on whether or not I should even try to get the opinion of ATS, since there seems to be so many haters, but I gotta know now. I want to preface this by saying that I normally do not believe in the paranormal and am not religious.

Someone very close to me was diagnosed with cancer at the beginning of 2011. It devistated our entire family as she was the "rock" in the family. She went through chemo and surgery and all the other standard cancer treatments, none of which worked.

It was very sad seeing her like this, and being a very religious person, she still had a great attitude and was stronger than most of the other family members.

Her house was where the entire family met up for holidays, and Thanksgiving 2011 was no exception. We again were supposed to go to her house for Christmas, but on Christmas Eve she was admitted into the hospital once again.

Luckily, I was in the town of the hospital where she was admitted, and was able to see her that evening. She was in good spirits, but said that she didn't want to deal with the pain anymore. After seeing her like this I couldn't even imagine life without her. She had esentially raised me, and always been there for me. She had little money, but always made everyone in the family a present and a card for every occasion.

She was sent home from the hospital on December 30 2011. I went to visit her the next day (New Years Eve). She was so drugged up that she was unable to talk, but she did acknowledge that she new I was there by squeezing my hand. I stayed with her for only three hours that day, and before I left I said my goodbye. It was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do, and she was really the first person that I have been close to that has passed away. While saying my goodbyes, I asked her to come visit me when she passed. As I stated earlier, I don't normally give in to this type of behavior, but at that point I would try anything.

When I returned home after a two hour drive, I proceeded to loose it emotionally. I finally gave up and fell asleep at around 9:00pm. During the time I was sleeping, I felt an amazing sense of calm, and peacefulness, and saw a very bright white light ......extremely bright. I then awoke to the sound of my phone ringing, and I already knew what the person on the other end was going to say......she was gone. I was still so calm, and peaceful when the person told me, they asked if I could hear them because they were expecting a completely different reaction from me, as they new my relationship with her. It was an surreal experience, and I have never had anything like it before or since.

Now I am faced with the dilemma of whether or not this is a sign of something paranormal or if it is just the human brain coping with the stress of the whole situation. The cynical side of me says it was just a coping mechanism, but the other side of me says she came and visited.

Any insight would be much appreciated.

posted on May, 21 2012 @ 07:13 PM
I really think you got what you asked for...

posted on May, 21 2012 @ 07:13 PM
I would say her spirit was giving you one last gift, a token of the love you had for her...

Peace. Being at peace with her absence.

That may not be it, but what better answer could you ask for?

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posted on May, 21 2012 @ 07:14 PM
Im sorry for your loss first of all. As for the visit, I think she probably did keep her promise and came to say goodbye. If I were you, I would probably just tell her to go to the light (which she probably did) and do not attept to keep her spirit around. Im sure she is looking at you from wherever she is but I wouldnt go ahead and not let her spirit 'rest in peace" by asking her to continue giving you signs. Just cherish the memories and regard her as your guardian angel now.

posted on May, 21 2012 @ 07:16 PM
Not really quite the same experience as yours per se, but when my dad (who lived around 150 miles away) died my mother got a phone call in the living room, i was in my bedroom at the time and immediately rushed to the top of the stairs to earwig, and somehow deep down i knew what had happened. I din't know it was my dad until my mum told me but i knew someone had died before my mum said anything on the phone...

But i was very calm when my mother made the walk upstairs to meet me at the top, i was rather emotion-less, we exchanged words and a hug and that was pretty much it...

posted on May, 21 2012 @ 07:18 PM
I think you may already know the answer But, you are afraid of being judged by popular belief or what you have been told is the right way to think.
trust your inner most feelings. don't dwell on this experience. Accept that it happened and enjoy the memories of your departed friend.

Condolences to you

posted on May, 21 2012 @ 07:23 PM
Sorry. There is no insight I can offer.

What I will offer is a story somewhat strangely similar:

When my father passed due to cancer he was brought home for his final weeks. My sister, a nurse, stayed with my mother during this time. She took care of my father and helped my mother in any way she could. What a God-send that was for all of us. (Don't know what we would have done without her!)

She slept in a room above my father's deathbed and the room she slept in had a vent right over my father's bed and she could hear him below. One night she was startled out of her sleep in the wee hours. She couldn't explain what made her wake up so suddenly. However, within SECONDS of waking she could hear my father's breathing suddenly stop. She went downstairs and sure enough he was gone and was still fully warm to the touch.

The next day, while working the IT Help Desk, the private line rang. This typically happened probably a dozen times a day. When that phone rang I knew. I truly knew what the call was.

I answered and sure enough it was my sister on the phone informing me that Dad had passed. Strangely, it was more relief than sorrow I felt. (Cancer for those of you who have never seen it in a loved one is a complete b*tch!)

I'm glad you did indeed decide to post this. It felt good to write this.


posted on May, 21 2012 @ 07:26 PM

I'm glad you did indeed decide to post this. It felt good to write this.


Thank you for sharing your story. It felt really good for me to write this as well, even though it is still quite difficult to deal with. I do believe she made a short stop on her way to wherever it is she was going.

posted on May, 21 2012 @ 07:29 PM
You know in your heart what it was.

But I believe it was you letting go in spirit and releasing her as she left this world into the next.
On a deeper level, you both said I love you, goodbye

Which is a beautiful thing


posted on May, 21 2012 @ 07:33 PM
reply to post by SUICIDEHK45

She came to visit you and wanted you to feel the peace that she felt. My sister in-law passed away back in 2009. Her and I got along very well. I can even say better than my own sisters. When she passed I was devastated. A day didn't go by without hearing her voice in my head.

After she passed, my wife and I had a lot of unusual things happening which we relate to her sister. I've talked about them on a few of my posts. Although I'm not an emotional type of guy, just like you, she was the first person that passed which I was close with. I often told my wife that she was put on this earth to help me emotionally, since I grew up in an abusive family. She always had an open ear when I was stressed or she would always know when things were troubling me.

She gave you a gift and gave you a glimpse of the "other side." I definitely believe loved ones try to communicate shortly after they're death. Depending upon how "tuned in" or how easily you can "tap in" with your surroundings, the bigger experience you will have.

My wife has always been able to feel other peoples emotions and can be affected by them very easily. So she has had many fleeting calming effects and connections with her sister more than I have. I've had some experiences, but a lot of them have been through my wife or electronically.

posted on May, 21 2012 @ 07:35 PM
you can either punch yourself in the face many times to let go this demon, or watch the exorcist on vhs or dvd, maybe drink some.

posted on May, 21 2012 @ 07:38 PM
reply to post by WeRpeons

if they wanted to visit wouldnt they say, hello?

posted on May, 21 2012 @ 07:49 PM
Many stories like that, I believe you got what you asked for. I don't believe in religion but I am highly interested in the paranormal..reply to post by SUICIDEHK45

posted on May, 21 2012 @ 08:28 PM

Originally posted by stinkelbaum
you can either punch yourself in the face many times to let go this demon, or watch the exorcist on vhs or dvd, maybe drink some.

There will be no face punching, vhs watching, or drinking from me. Thanks for being a hater!

posted on May, 21 2012 @ 08:32 PM
reply to post by SUICIDEHK45

I get that calm when I get traumatized, in varying degrees. Lately, the mere feeling of God's glory and love isn't enough to overcome the net destructive product, however, and I am being visited by my Father, with warnings to leave, and how to do it. He died many years ago, and I don't often think about him, to be honest, because he was a blind, just someone to jump for the big boss. He left no footprint of joy, or having done anything but be a drone. When I do think of him, it is with pain, because he wasn't allowed to interact with us, his children. She saw to that.

I am sorry of your loss. I cannot say whether you are getting proof of life or what have you...we are all in the dark, really, in as much that we can only see a few inches of the iceberg. We cannot even see but a few degrees of the light spectrum. The experience you cite was paranormal, because it was out of the realm of the normal. What you make of it is your call. I remember being isolated from seeing my Father as he died because I was deemed satan, so I had to stay away, in other rooms. But yeah, there were a few moments when I got that unreal sense of calm, just unreal. Like you were in an expanding balloon, impossible to describe. I was listening to a little 3rd movement action from Ludwig's 9th at the time, as well, but I dare say that I could spend the rest of my life listening and trying to reconstruct that vibe, and it will not just emerge on the music's account. It was probably my Father trying to say things before he died, which weren't allowed due to the satan restrictions. Now I just drift into sleep, and can hear the earth's heartbeat, when I try to sidestep the terrible mental truths I must face. I see no way out, and I rely heavily on the supernatural. It's more than a bunch of chemical reactions. I am weary of trying to define God, etc.... That cannot be done. It is. That's all I know.

posted on May, 21 2012 @ 09:20 PM
I have a similar story.

When I was about 15 years old, I knew this lady. Very nice woman. We would exchange reading material and have long discussions. She was a good friend. Her name was Doreen.

Anyway, I was at our local hangout and a couple of guys mentioned that she had a heart attack and was in the local hospital. It hurt. It really did. However, I went on home and thought no more of it.

That night I went to bed as usual and fell asleep. Anyway, I had this dream that she was in. We were sitting at a table and talking. Here was the convesation:

Myself: How have you been doing,Doreen?
Doreen: (Smiling) I'm doing great!! I'm dead.
Myself: What?
Doreen: I said, I'm dead.
Myself: No,no. It's not true?
Doreen: (Laughing) Yes, sweetie. It's true. I'm dead.
Myself: No,no. (Then I wake up crying)

I looked over at the digital clock and it read, 1:20 a.m. Thinking it to be just a nightmare, I rolled over and went back to sleep.

When I woke up the next morning my mother was in the Kitchen. Here was the conversation.

Mom: Honey, I want you to sit down.
Myself: Mom, I think I know what you are going to tell me. Doreen died, didn't she?
Mom: Yes, honey. I'm sorry.
Myself: What time?
Mom: Her daughter told me that it was between 1:15 and 1:30 this morning.

posted on May, 22 2012 @ 11:59 AM
Thank you for sharing your stories, it seems that there are a lot more of these out there than I originally thought. Anybody else have one?

posted on May, 22 2012 @ 05:08 PM
reply to post by stinkelbaum

I think there are limits to what they can communicate to the living. I believe we're all here to learn lessons or to help others learn lessons to become closer to the source, ie...God, the Creator, the supreme spiritual being, or whatever you believe in. If the spirit world would be allowed to communicate with us, a lot of these lessons wouldn't be learned.

I do however, believe some people have a gift to communicate with spirits. My wife is one of them, but she doesn't want to open herself up to it because she's afraid of it. I keep telling her if she did, she could probably communicate with her deceased sister a lot more. She keeps telling me I don't understand. She tells me once you "open that door" the good and the bad want to make contact. My wife is all female, she has no tough side in her at all, so I can understand her concern. She feels she can become vulnerable.


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