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posted on May, 22 2012 @ 11:52 AM
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some of us are past anger. Some of us are past indifference. Some of us don't want to feel, some don't want to NOT feel.

We are pasty offerings. We are past peace. We are past rage. We are beyond the human emotion.

We are something else all together. We are becoming the locust, the plague, the curse. We have no need for mercy anymore.

They can kill us, our loved ones, our closest people. They could kill us horribly, slowly, sadistically. We don't care anymore. It is as nothing to us.

We are the very soul of revenge and despair. The spirit of injustice and rage. They laugh, smile, and enjoy this little game they rigged.

We feel nothing. We only know they must be ended. We will live misery together or know peace together. They will not have the day.

We are not at war. WE ARE WAR.




posted on May, 22 2012 @ 11:53 AM
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This basically describes every human being that has ever lived.



posted on May, 22 2012 @ 11:59 AM
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Although I may feel some of those things right now, none of it applies to any enlightment going on within.
My emotional well being is the result of what's going on in my life at the time, how i cope or perceive things, as I suspect it is for most.
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posted on May, 22 2012 @ 12:01 PM
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I've felt this way off and on for years. Perhaps its a sort of anticipation to ascending into a higher realm. Perhaps our higher selves know the amazing future that is ahead of us and we are awakened to the fact that there is more to this life than just money, fame, power, etc. We are looking at the world in a different way. We see through the illusion. We have a deeper sense of who we are...

The last few days, I had no desire to be on the computer... I didn't want to do anything.. Well, on Saturday, I spent all day outside weeding, planting & doing yard work... But this is unusual for me, as an internet marketer, to not want to get on the computer and just be outside... Anyway, it was kind of like I needed a break from the normal stuff to just relax and do nothing.

Something that has helped me and continues to help me is to practice Ho' Oponopono... I learned about it from reading a book by Joe Vitale called Zero Limits. Then I attended a seminar, but it emphasizes the importance of "cleaning" and when we remove all of our "programs" then we are able to get into a state of "zero" where everything is erased and we are open to inspiration. Our life flows and we just exist... We surrender to the Divine and I have experienced that and it is wonderful... so when I feel this way, I try to analyze those feelings I am having and I take 100% responsibility for them, then I release them by saying "I love you", "I'm sorry", "Please Forgive me" & "Thank You"... Then I visualize a white light coming out of me and enveloping the negative emotion and transforming it into pure light... Its an amazing process...

Also, just to let you know about the transformation that has occurred in my life in the last few months... After 40+ years as an active member of the Mormon Church, I finally decided it was time to leave. This was no small thing for someone who has been embedded in the culture his whole life... Someone who graduated from BYU, served a 2 yr mission, taught at the Missionary Training Center, married in the temple... I was about as True Blue as one could be... But since the end of last year, I had gained a deeper understanding of aspects of the doctrine and I finally came to the knowledge that it wasn't true. But I didn't have the courage inside of me to step outside of it... It was like I was still locked into the belief system and finally around mid-March, I knew it was something I had to do... and somehow I found the courage to take a stand and break the news to my wife, who I thought would leave me... Fortunately, she didn't and it was rough for the first couple weeks because it totally turned my life upside down and I've had family & friends and ward members wanting to sit down and talk to me... The reactions have been crazy... from accusations to extreme sadness to anger to wondering if I have mental problems or wondering what sins I might be hiding... I even had a brother and a sister tell my wife that if it were them, they wouldn't be sticking around... In their eyes, I've basically committed spiritual suicide...

Anyway, sorry to share all of this, but when I read your post, I could relate... and the experience I have gone through the past few months has just been a confirmation that stuff is happening now on this planet to raise our vibrations and move us into new places in our lives... (if we allow them)... Higher Energies are coming into this Earth and even though we do feel these empty times, there is so much joy and gratitude that we can express and we can learn to roll with these waves of energy as they shape and mold our lives in a magnificent way...



posted on May, 22 2012 @ 12:03 PM
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Not sure if 1 feels as the OP states totally but @ times it does seem like a "DROID" WORLD smh controlled managed no willed by those within. The feeling can become a little overwhelming when you try to enlighten others and they look @ you like what makes you so sure?? So you got to let the SLEEP until they get enough energy to awaken and keep patience with them... Its not their fault fully that they are asleep and cannot understand you or your positive intents..



posted on May, 22 2012 @ 12:18 PM
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Thanks for posting, S & F for you


I felt this way a year ago and it lasted until maybe March of this year. It wasn't depression, it was just absence of something and I felt I should be feeling a certain way. It was like being extremely truthful with yourself and when you are extremely truthful with yourself, all the bells and whistles fall away and you are left with you, your choices, and your path. Being very real isn't always very lustrous. It came on me like a wave, strong and fast, but eventually receded the same way.

I am now past that point. I still feel awake and aware, but something wonderful, truly wonderful, has happened: when you get real and aware, and move past the point where the absence of the veil doesn' t bother you, you begin to understand exactly what it means to live. Not be alive, but living. I take so much joy in such small things, things other people (or even myself a year or two ago) wouldn't really consider to be the epitome of love and life. To watch my children grow and be happy, to wake next to my husband on a Sunday morning, to hike on a mountain, or put my hands in dirt while I garden, is bliss to me. There is nothing better.

I guess if there is some sort of grand transformation to blame, it teaches one thing, and that is to love the simple pleasures, to live closer to the earth, to embrace the things that cannot be bought or sold or taken away from you because really, that's all we really have and all we should really hope for. That is what I have learned and I am a better person now than I ever was before, because I do not have that longing, that obsession with things, that mantra of "plan for today in order to live tomorrow". I can just be and it is the best feeling in the world, no matter the kind of hell breaking loose all around me or in the world that I cannot control. Just be and then be happy.



posted on May, 22 2012 @ 12:19 PM
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I feel this way too- no excitement for anything I wanted as a child. I think its because I busted my butt over and over to get things only to wind up losing them. Love, jobs, friends, money its all a cycle of trying, attaining and losing and I don't want to try anymore. Now in my mid 30s I'm burned out and wondering what to do with the remaining 25-55 years of my life.

I kind of want to be the contented 1950s housewife who met her husband in high school and lived all their life together in polite if not happy companionship, but knowing myself I do not have the temperment for it. I want a baby but I'd probably screw the child up royally.

So here I am just existing, waiting to die no dreams or goals or motivations. Probably a mid life crisis, I hope so, anyway.



posted on May, 22 2012 @ 12:21 PM
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Originally posted by vancouverite
Ive been feeling empty lately, I did some digging and it brought me to yahoo, this man was talking about exactly how I've been feeling, then this random person posts everything I've been feeling in a nutshell. It's grown more intense these past couple days. Am I losing it, or do you guys feel the same?This is what the mystery poster said:


Many people with your problem, you have found a new paradigm, you are one of the few that has found something wrong with life. You seek the reason for living. To understand how other people act out their emotions. Naturally you are void of emotion calm, you know that there is something weird with the world. You try and make everyone you come into contact with feel happy and so you act like how they act conforming to their personality. You care not what people think of you it does not even matter, you do not even care about this world you do not wish to commit suicide but to get meaning from this world find answers. You have awakened, become aware. You find no joy in normal everyday life. Your consciousness has greatly increased. You wonder how they can just act the way they act (they are still asleep). Sometimes you are standing there and you look around at everything feeling dense and unusual like you shouldnt be here. You feel like you are in dream from which you must wake. And when you dream, you feel great, like you belong there, like as if you were resonating at a higher frequency, you wonder if you truly do belong in realms you go to when you sleep. Lately you have been feeling unusually tired, like being drained of energy. Nothing is at it seems brother and you will find out soon enough.


To the OP and those who can relate to him: one explanation for why you think and feel the way you do is because perhaps you're old souls. Check out these sites.

Old Soul 1

Old Soul 2

Old Soul 3

What people who go through the state the OP describes can do is avoid feelings of emptiness and negativity that cross the mind frequently and have a balanced mind, with a basic underlying foundation of positivity. Such people may feel out of place in society when the lures of materialism and petty human interactions no longer appeal to them, but they should remember that they don't have to conform to society's norms. The best they can do is cultivate their interests and believe they'll get their break and their due. Such can take an eternity especially if every day feels like a chore and attaining one's goal seems like trudging through life day by day, but just take it a day at a time and remember were only here once and the seemingly elusive and distant fulfillment of one's desires will eventually be in one's hands. We all have our own timetables and all what one has to do is fall in line and wait for your turn ( your break ) in this life.



posted on May, 22 2012 @ 12:21 PM
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I call that school. During final exams it's like being the alien that fell to earth.

Honestly, if you feel this way all the time, it's not good. I mean, school can be rough and final exams are like being in a storm, but it's survivable because there're breaks. It can't happen every day...

I'd suggest to someone feeling this way to take a walk on a city street and watch the people and smile and feel the air and excitement (if you can). Get out. Feel the world.

Don't be trapped in your mind. There's nothing to escape from. Just be... flow.
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posted on May, 22 2012 @ 12:27 PM
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This feeling you describe is not something new, and as you can see from the replies, you're not alone in your feelings. People have written about it through the ages.
As someone who has been around the block a few times, all I can offer are a few things I have
observed. Take from them what you will.

There may be times when you feel so empty, all you can do is just keep living. If you've ever lived through a time when the only thing pressing was surviving another day, you'll come away with a different view.
You must be tough. You can be tough and caring at the same time.

We tend to blow our situations out of proportion. It's our egos.

Very, very little of life's situations are black & white. Thinking they are is a big mistake. Letting it dominate your thinking to the point that you compartmentalize everything, is tragic.
For example, I see posts like:
1. All rich people are evil.
2. We're all slaves
3. There's no point to life.

That, to me, shows someone who's reasoning has been hijacked. They read some gloom and doom stuff and swallowed it hook, line & sinker, right up to the point that they're presenting it to us...1, 2, 3. Like they're marketing it.
Very sad.

To get over your empty feeling, take up some right brain activity like a musical instrument, painting, etc.
Some of the coolest art that exists was created by people when they felt as you say you do.

In my humble opinion, the treatise you read by the guy on yahoo is just another rehash of some new-age principles. I had a book written in the late 1950s by a guy who said, "The next few years will usher in the Age of Aquarius...." He said almost verbatim what you read by the guy on yahoo. Another story of how we're going to be magically raised up soon.

Now, this is going to sound like I'm some new-ager, but...
I DO know that we all have a higher self. It never lies to us our deceives us. It's wise. Listen to it. It will instruct you far, far better than people on the internet. It will keep you on the steady path, away from the jagged spikes.

To paraphrase the sage:

The world of the ego is up. Money is up. Importance is up. People seek to be magically raised up. But that is all foolishness. Redemption and enlightenment is down and lateral, not up. Those sublimely beautiful celestial worlds are laterally placed at 90º to us, not up. Humility is an etheric flat line, not an up spike. Sanity and composure are beautiful fields of a gently rolling waveform, while insanity and stress are high intensity jagged 'up' spikes.People seek to be magically raised up. But that is all foolishness. Redemption and enlightenment is down and lateral, not up. Those sublimely beautiful celestial worlds are laterally placed at 90º to us, not up. Humility is an etheric flat line, not an up spike. Sanity and composure are beautiful fields of a gently rolling waveform, while insanity and stress are high intensity jagged 'up' spikes.



posted on May, 22 2012 @ 12:35 PM
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Originally posted by redmoon1
Something that has helped me and continues to help me is to practice Ho' Oponopono... I learned about it from reading a book by Joe Vitale called Zero Limits. Then I attended a seminar, but it emphasizes the importance of "cleaning" and when we remove all of our "programs" then we are able to get into a state of "zero" where everything is erased and we are open to inspiration. Our life flows and we just exist... We surrender to the Divine and I have experienced that and it is wonderful... so when I feel this way, I try to analyze those feelings I am having and I take 100% responsibility for them, then I release them by saying "I love you", "I'm sorry", "Please Forgive me" & "Thank You"... Then I visualize a white light coming out of me and enveloping the negative emotion and transforming it into pure light... Its an amazing process...


Did you listen to the music he did?
I purchased it off his site - Aligning to Zero
It is great.



posted on May, 22 2012 @ 12:38 PM
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I "AWOKE" a few years ago, and I had the sudden urge to move to Montana and wait out whatever is coming. I also felt a strong desire to start a church and begin preaching. Not the mumbo-jumbo that you get in most churches now days, but a new enlightened message that seems to come from nowhere and spills from my lips everytime I start talking to someone about it. It is mesmerizing and humbling all at once.

My advice to anyone feeling this way, is this:

What you are searching for is the Truth. The Truth will fill the void that you have been feeling and make you whole, again. You can find the path to the Truth in your Bible, but the journey takes place in your mind and in your Soul. The Soul is the part of you that connects your mind to the Truth. Learn the path and make the trip and then, you will start to make sense of it all...

The "FoOt"



posted on May, 22 2012 @ 12:43 PM
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They actually have created a names for this condition you speak of. They call it depersonalization disorder or derealization disorder. It sounds pertinent that the medical industry would try to classify awareness as a disease and treat it so we can return to a life of blissful ignorance using pills that return the cloak to our eyes. Aware people are not considered normal in this society. Aware people are a threat to this dream that we exist in.

I woke up about six years ago to notice a cloak on half the people around me. Young children do not seem to have the cloak so I think our conditioning by society creates the cloak. If we fill the mind with what we are told is real than we cannot see the truth anymore. The trouble is that until we lived life we cannot discern it. Society wants to retire us when our eyes open and have labeled our awareness as dementia if we confront them. Out pop the prescriptions because it is worse to see the lies than to be crazy. I have been told by those a lot older that this awareness comes with age if you allow it. Old people cannot challenge the system or they risk being doped up or their retirement and insurance jeopardized.
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posted on May, 22 2012 @ 12:53 PM
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Originally posted by LesMisanthrope

This sounds like it's coming from experience. I can guess that some time recently you've discovered that you spend to much time indoors on conspiracy sites, that you never talk to real people, that you've been constantly filling your head with bs and the things you focus on manifests itself in your life. This is your world; and now that you've escaped the shackles of a this website and your own delusion, you're back to emancipate the rest of us. Yet, here you are, still spending too much time indoors on conspiracy sites and not talking to real people.


Gee detective, did you read my above post or something?

Yes, I was just like you at one point. (Not recently. Years ago.) Then I joined the Marine Corps and kick started a real life. Got the chance to travel to different places, meet different people of all different backgrounds and colors. Then I realized when I stopped reading conspiracies 24/7, my feelings of angst were gone, and I realized the real world is separate from the kind of world I was living in. Just because I come on here sometimes, doesn't mean I'm deluded!

This is not a conspiracy site, by the way, although I do enjoy the conspiracy section sometimes, debunking illogical conspiracies and trying to bring people back to the real world.



Who gets mad on the internet? Its words on a screen. Some people, it seems, needs to realize this.


Who gets mad in real life? Its just words in your ear. Some people, it seems, need to realize this.

See how silly that is?
By saying "its the internet" you are just trying to cover up the fact that you got angry. You can not say you have never gotten angry on the internet at some point. It happens to everyone. Get real buddy. Words evoke emotions.
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posted on May, 22 2012 @ 12:57 PM
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Originally posted by sylvie
He's right, folks, go out there and talk to *real* people; enjoy the sunshine and good company; walk the dog; take a hike in the forest; go swimming in a lake.

Life can be beautiful if you let it.


Yes!
Thank you for not taking offense and understanding what I was saying.

The world isn't really such a dark malevolent place



posted on May, 22 2012 @ 12:57 PM
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Something tells me the fluoridated water isn't helping things any. Or the many other chemical exposures which are now nearly impossible to avoid.



posted on May, 22 2012 @ 12:59 PM
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That was a very beautiful and insightful post....loved it....are you my one of my girl soulmates? Love Men very much, but at the end of the day, they have kicked my ass more then any force I have ever faced, and somehow that "devine" union eludes me....lol.....I swear I tried, really, really, hard.....

If I had my heart's desire, I would live out the rest of my days on Earth, with everyone I loved living a "Little house on the Prarie" type of mentality....lmao...I know...soo corny, perhaps we all live on tropical island....same idea I guess....




posted on May, 22 2012 @ 12:59 PM
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posted on May, 22 2012 @ 01:01 PM
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Have you realized that this "life" you have, this "body" you have, is no more real, definite or defining of who "you" really are, than the trousers you wear everyday to go to work?

This body is just a suit. A spacesuit if you will.
You are not your life. You are not your mind. You are not your feelings.
Your true self is something more deep, eternal and timeless.

You are an eternal being, having a time-constricted physical experience.

The reason?

Finding out is what you came here for, brother.

Wake up.



posted on May, 22 2012 @ 01:04 PM
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www.urbandictionary.com...

As a Christian, I believe the world is being subject to the scenerio laid out in this link I provided. The spirit of this world is darkness and its being made manifest in our own minds as such.

"tartarus"



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