Pretty much sums up exactly how i feel... So here is my question, what if we are the subjects of propaganda and this is exactly how TPTB wants us to feel...

Originally posted by Johnkie
Pretty much sums up exactly how i feel... So here is my question, what if we are the subjects of propaganda and this is what Exactly how TPTB wants us to feel... L

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I've felt this way throughout my adult life. Probably when I was 17 it started. I got a job as a cook in a bar/ restaurant after previous work in one. I was exposed to people showing their true colors from all the booze in them. This taught me how to really read people as well. I never took it as deep as the original post I just thought it was a personality trait I developed. Realistic yet openminded and modest yet confident.

I have been unusually tired for days. I know the difference between not sleeping enough and just being completely drained for no apparent reason. This often happens off and on during the year and usually goes along with some full moons, or celestial alignments, so it doesn't bother me except that it's sometimes annoying to wake up and feel like going back to bed.

But this morning, I felt almost depressed, just like there was nothing to do, no one to talk to. A lot of the things I consider important just meant very little today. I really just wanted to sit here and do nothing!

I know these times pass and I DO attribute them to the frequency of Earth changing. Anyone who thinks that sounds stupid, go check out Richard Hoagland's torsion field stuff - totally explains it in quite physical terms.

It might sound stupid to you guys, but does anyone feel a need for an epic adventure, or break in the system as it were, like an apocalypse or life/ earth changer, where we can revert to our old selves, and just live in the now, day to day, a new exciting world..... As it stands right now, if somthing asked me if I wanted to explore the universe on their ship, and leave everything, I think I would go.

Originally posted by biggmoneyme
intense energy hitting the planet. the next 8 years will be interesting to say the least. # bout to hit to fan, but thats just my guess

This is more my thought. Intense energy hitting the planet. It's been increasing exponentially since the early 90's. It's not just us too. I know when I feel it happening, other people around me say they feel tired, or weird but they just write it off. And no, I don't tell them "intense energy hitting the planet" because they would NOT get it. But it affects everyone. I don't however think the # will hit the fan though. I think people are just being changed by this energy day after day, institutions, corporations, political leaders. There might be some rough patches, but all in all, I'd say the world and its people are going to get better and better.

One thing you may notice, is that AFTER such periods of feeling extra strange (in too many ways to describe), when it's over, and you get a break, you feel GREAT! So I look at these as little upgrades, the universe doing psychotherapy on us!

Maybe it is stress without realizing we are stressed. Like gaining weight. We don't realize 20 extra pounds is heavy until we carry it in our arms for an hour. You wake up expecting the day to be just like the day before and the day before that. Guess what? Turns out is was. Vacations are more stress then working. It is insane to believe that you live to work and you work to live then you have children believing they will fulfil your life. Compare yourself to a june bug. What is his purpose? Why would God design him with faults? He can't even fly straight. Is a virus intention to rule the world? How many people are supporting their parents and their children right now because of the economy? Do we drown ourselves in TV, a book, our gardens or the internet as opposed to seeking social events? There really isn't a purpose yet self preservation is instinct. We anticipate our children to be extensions of our self as if we live after death through them. How many people know Idavee Wheeler? I do and peices of her linger. She was one woman who pressed to give voting rights to women. I may be one of many but I still have the power to change how we live today by standing up for things I believe in so my extensions will live happier than I.

Originally posted by OneEleven

Originally posted by Skada
Yeah, I feel like this almost every day. Some call it enlightenment, others call it craziness. (Crazy can be fixed)

The "other symptoms" are: not feeling like you belong here, you want to go "Home" but you don't know where it is (but it isn't on this planet), the way people do things is crazy or "not normal" to you. There are more, but I think it is the new normal. We are just becoming more then just our human form. Enjoy the ride, it will be bumpy.

Wow .... Totally misinformed ...

Enlightenment isn't lonliness, depression, or confusion ...

In fact, enlightenment would be the exact opposite of these things ... A complete understanding ...

You're moving backwards...

Feeling lonely and depressed about it is a phase though.

Hey OP if you want to feel fullfilled by comparison
come sit in a walmart in Onterrible for the time it takes to drink a Timmy or two...
assuming you have at least some powers of observation you should begin to feel fullfilled again after about twenty minutes

I felt this way for about 2 years but I don't now. I'll attempt to explain. I think I've always been a bit weird like this my whole life. Usual story percieved by most as intelligent but ended up failing at school. Not at first. Until high school everything was too easy I remember doing barely any work and still getting through until high school.

For high school I moved from the place I'd grown up in and had been all my life. I started school and only knew about 3 people none of which I was in the same class with. I wasn't happy about it at the time but I think back and I wasn't truly aware of what was happening. I was trapped in a bubble I didn't think enough I just did things.

I gradually cared less everyday at the same time my parents were having problems like they always had. They ended up splitting up for good. I was happy until then they had argued every night. Plus my relationship with my dad was nonexistent. Always working never there still liked to think he knew enough about me to judge me. One time stands out when we got into an argument I ended up trying to walk away from him but he kept following me anywhere in the house I went.

I was unbelievably angry I threatened to hurt hiim if he didn't leave me alone. He began to tell me to do it. I refused to give in to what he was trying to do. So one of the hardest things I'd ever done was walk away from my house and I didn't come back until he was gone.

My mum ended up kicking him out because she found texts to another woman that said he loved her and that wasn't the first time something like that had happened. I felt worse and worse about school I had a bunch of friends by then but even them didn't make going to school any better. I was constantly harrassed by teachers for not following rules mostly uniform related.

A few went out of their way to make me feel worse breaking their own rules and saying things to me that were pretty unprofessional taunting me and such. I wanted to hurt them like I did my dad. I would stay at home for sometimes up to a month pretending I was sick. It was a running joke about me staying home for long periods of time.

I got to a point where I actually got physically sick and I was always tired most likely from stress and an unhealthy lifestyle. I decided one day I was never going to attend school again lest I do something stupid or dangerous. I wasn't legally allowed to leave at that age. But I did. Everyone I knew was angry at me friends and family. I lashed out everyone that questioned my decision.

I was truant for a year because I was only 15 I wasn't out causing trouble though so I wasn't bothered by anyone until I was almost 16. At that point they said I might as well wait till I was 16 to enroll in correspondence school. I believe I'm an example of what is a very flawed system that few are attempting to change and many are being negatively effected by.

The statement I've just made is very broad but there are many problems and many people I know that are a lot more involved in this system for various reasons and they didn't back then so much but now we talk all the time about these problems and they keep saying they have to stay with it for certain things like jobs and then there is also the constant pressure from everywhere around them.

I no longer wonder why people feel the need to get drunk and high every weekend but I don't think it's a good idea to alter your mind to escape because you never really do escape and quite often people break instead and they don't always survive that.

So back to my story which I hope is actually of some interest I just thought it better to provide background to assist in explaining certain emotions. Before I was 16 I was a lot more angry at everything and just plain suicidal I guess I was trying to recover from my life up until that point. I never had a good outlet. I really didn't think about it. Just reacted. When I felt angry or sad I reacted.

The only thing that really helped me stay calm was music which is actually a big part of my story. I'd always liked Hip Hop and Rap regardless of what people may think about those genres they were my favourite. At first it was mainstream but I began to drift away from only that and these days it's a lot more underground but I'm fine with either because if it has a message and isn't just shallow with no depth then I can appreciate it.

I started writing raps myself sometime when I was 15 I used a maths book which had maybe 2 pages of math that I ripped out. It became one of few school books that I actually filled up. That ended up becoming my outlet I didn't like writing at first but I forced myself to because I knew I could do better if I practised. I continued writing and when correspondence started I had real problems finding a reason to do it. That's when these empty feelings were at their worst I had them to some degree when I left school but by this time when things had calmed down a bit it was very difficult to find my path.

what if it's all actually some poison or radiation?
some crazy mental decay from the chemicals we're ingesting.
and we'll all die, and they're just comforting us by telling us that we're "awakened" o.O

dunno.
but that's interesting, yeah.

Some of those feelings I have from time to time. But I will tell you how I have felt lately, & this may be a little similar, or not; I feel like I am trapped inside of a giant simulation, like I am inside the Matrix. I understand a lot of things for what they are, but what are they really? I have gotten to a point, after much reading and a lot of searching for truth, where I can't stand to watch TV, with the exception of the show 'Ancient Aliens" and "The Avengers." It's like everything is distorting my reality.< Yea, that's it, that's exactly how I feel, like something is distorting my reality! As for dreams, well, I feel like my dreams are programmed messages. Maybe they were programmed by my higher self sometime around the beginning, or maybe they were programmed by the most high. Either way, due to whatever it is that is trying to distort my reality, my dreams/messages are also becoming distorted, and therefore harder to comprehend. Is anyone following this? My dreams have somehow been programmed into my sub-conscious, which is a different entity than my aware self all together, but is still a part of me. I also feel like the past is the future. Which may be why it is possible to dream of the "future", as I have done before. I feel like time is not confined to move in one direction, but rather, I think time moves unpredictably & simultaneously in any given direction. Again, is anyone following this? Take the pyramids of Ancient Egypt for example, we call it the ancient past, but how do we know that this scenario is not our future? I guess I do a lot of thinking that may be labeled as irrational, illogical, or unconventional. That's just me though. That's probably why I feel so weird sometimes, like I was born into the twilight zone. I swear the more I know, the more it gets weirder.