posted on May, 21 2012 @ 05:53 PM
Originally posted by vancouverite
Ive been feeling empty lately, I did some digging and it brought me to yahoo, this man was talking about exactly how I've been feeling, then this
random person posts everything I've been feeling in a nutshell. It's grown more intense these past couple days. Am I losing it, or do you guys feel
the same?This is what the mystery poster said:
Many people with your problem, you have found a new paradigm, you are one of the few that has found something wrong with life. You seek the reason for
living. To understand how other people act out their emotions. Naturally you are void of emotion calm, you know that there is something weird with the
world. You try and make everyone you come into contact with feel happy and so you act like how they act conforming to their personality. You care not
what people think of you it does not even matter, you do not even care about this world you do not wish to commit suicide but to get meaning from this
world find answers. You have awakened, become aware. You find no joy in normal everyday life. Your consciousness has greatly increased. You wonder how
they can just act the way they act (they are still asleep). Sometimes you are standing there and you look around at everything feeling dense and
unusual like you shouldnt be here. You feel like you are in dream from which you must wake. And when you dream, you feel great, like you belong there,
like as if you were resonating at a higher frequency, you wonder if you truly do belong in realms you go to when you sleep. Lately you have been
feeling unusually tired, like being drained of energy. Nothing is at it seems brother and you will find out soon enough.
Yes I've felt like that before; and it actually ended up being an important part in the development of my own wisdom. I eventually surpassed
I would describe it as nausea
, an almost depressing realization that mankind as a whole is destructive, untrustworthy and dishonest with
itself—and I am guilty by association. I blamed myself because I was a part of it, even though I've never hurt another being unnecessarily. It
wasn't until I conquered my soul, realized my own passions and mastered my instincts and emotions when I realized that every single individual has
this potential. I fell in love with myself, nature and thus mankind again, but this time on an individual and personal level. I removed myself from
the herd and sheep-like nature of the hive and discovered my inner lone wolf. Now I can take an existentialist stance and easily remove myself from
the guilt of being Man.
Once you discover the absurdity of life, you can start to have fun with it. A good technique for remaining happy in times of negativity is the use of
mockery and humor. Whatever you see wrong with mankind and the world, mock it, shame it and make it feel horrible for being the way it is. Also,
repudiate every dogma or authoritarian stance on anything, even your own. Be completely honest with yourself, question your faiths, all faiths.
Explore the negative side of things, there's less disappointment and more truth there, then laugh at it mockingly. Turn ideas on their head, just to
see what it looks like underneath, then laugh. Experiment—never stop experimenting—with ideas and avenues of contemplation, laughing at
absurdities along the way. If everyone goes one way, head the other way in spite. Create as much as you can. Destroy very little. Become like
Socrates, question everything and enjoy a life of inquiry. Be artful and creative with your identity, you can form it into whatever you wish. Your
life should be a work of art, no matter how arbitrary it is.
Learn to love yourself, and in turn love other selves.
This is what I did to pull myself out of depression.